Somehow or other, I still miss this place. Should I hold on to it? Or should I let it go?
I miss the ability to separate my emotions. To be calm, rational. To decide what goes where with 80% certainty. To just be in control.
Maybe it's better to hold on just a lil' longer.
It's been a while hasn't it? =)
Monday, April 20, 2009
Monday, November 10, 2008
Monday, November 3, 2008
The Little Things
A call, an e-mail, a video
A card and a short letter
A small pressed rose...
But rest assured, we've got your back."
"Never trust a dog to watch your food." Patrick, age 10
"When your dad is mad and asks you, "Do I look stupid? don't answer." Hannah, 9
"Never tell your mom her diet's not working." Michael, 14
"Stay away from prunes." Randy, 9
"Never pee on an electric fence." Robert, 13
"Don't squat with your spurs on." Noronha, 13
"Don't pull dad's finger when he tells you to." Emily, 10
"When your mom is mad at your dad, don't let her brush your hair." Taylia,11
"Never allow your three-year old brother in the same room as your school assignment." Traci, 14
"Don't sneeze in front of mum when you're eating crackers." Mitchell,12
"Puppies still have bad breath even after eating a Tic-Tac." Andrew, 9
"Never hold a dust buster and a cat at the same time." Kyoyo, 9
"You can't hide a piece of broccoli in a glass of milk." Armir, 9
"Don't wear polka-dot underwear under white shorts." Kellie, 11
"If you want a kitten, start out by asking for a horse." Naomi, 12
"Felt markers are not good to use as lipstick." Lauren, 9
"Don't pick on your sister when she's holding a baseball bat." Joel,10
"When you get a bad grade in school, show it to your mom when she's on the phone." Alyesha, 13
"Never try to baptize a cat." Eileen, 8
-random email-
Here's an advice of my own:-
have a good day everyone =)
p.p.s: Thanks Zoe and Michelle for the awesome overnight. *hugs*
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Hypocriticism - Your Call.
Isn't it funny:-
When the other fellow takes too long to do something, he's slow;
When I take too long to do something, I'm thorough.
When the other fellow doesn't do it, he's lazy;
When I don't do it, I'm busy.
When the other fellow does it without being told, he's overstepping his bounds;
When I go ahead and do it without being told, thats initiative.
When the other fellow states his opinion strongly, he's bullheaded;
When I state my opinion strongly, I'm firm.
When the other fellow overlooks a few rules of etiquette, he's rude;
When I skip a few rules of etiquette, I'm doing my own thing.
Lastly, I need to apologize to someone and the others, because apparently that someone complained that I did not greet him on msn when I'm online (wtf?!) and I did not link him in my blog. Not to mention that someone specifically highlighting the fact that I've ditched him for a few times in the past month despite me warning way beforehand that I'm unable to confirm my attendance. Okay, I shall stop here before I start reconsidering what the hell @#$%& am I apologising for.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Hurdles
So anyways, Brian called earlier cz he was bored - thats his official excuse, but its obviously more to check up on me. Being typical idiots, it went something like this:-
Brian: hello
Me: hey
Brian: How are you?
Me: Emo
Brian: Me too
Me: What for?
Brian: no reason
Me: wtf?
Brian: Yarh. Hear your voice then I suddenly emo. Miracle ler..
Me: wtf??
Brian: So.... wanna bet who's emo-ier?
Me: WTF???
Brian: I'm serious ler! I'm so emo now I could eat 3 packets of Doritos
Me: hmph. Eat la. I don't care. I'm the original emo-ier. Kenot copy.
Brian: Eh! Emo not you invent wan le. No copyright also
Me: I dun care (*sulks*)
Brian: Hah! I knew I was emo-ier than you
Me: wtf? where got??? you don't sound emo also. stop lying you liar! (sorry la. brain was not exactly working. can't think of more creative names to call him. *sigh*)
Brian: Me no lie. Me sitting down larh..
Me: ........
Brian: So.. how are you?
Me: I'm fine lah!
Brian: HAH! i knew you were lying! See! I told you I'm more emo
Me: wtf wtf wtf -____- I'm more emooooooo!
Brian: No larh. Dun lie. You are annoyed, not emo. You think I stupid arh?
Me: .........
We argued like that for almost 20 minutes. Geez. Now I feel like such a retard.
pps. Seeds of doubt are sprouting. I'm in trouble.
Monday, October 20, 2008
7 days
Listening to : Enya - Ask the Mountains.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
In Memory, Always
I'm home.
I was there. With him. So perfectly still, so pale.
It was much too brief, our time.
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His mum recognised me. I was shocked.
I never knew.
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"He wrote it for you," she said, passing it to me.
It started then. The dam burst.
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It was finally over. As I went down the stairs, I felt strangely relieved.
Its easier now. No less painful, but bearable.
I'm keeping the card.
Thank you, Alex Soo.
Please drive carefully. I can't bear losing anyone anymore.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
You
You were right.
Things are never as easy as they seem.
What am I to do now?
I need you, right now.
I miss you, so much.
Turn back time. Please.