2 down, 3 more to go!

i met an old friend of mine today. actually he saw me first, since i actually walked past him without recognising ==" (well, you know how i am.. so you shouldn't be surprised anyway). okay, back to the topic, as i was saying, i met an old friend, jonathan lee (if anyone else knows him) an old playmate of mine. haha, i remember how we used to play when we were much younger. he's older than me by a year and lived next to my babysitter. so he came round to play a lot. i remember he used to make me play with his ultraman toys (i'll be the monster and he'll be zooming around me) in return for sweets. aaahhh.. the good ol'days. hehe. he used to love bugging me about being shorter than him and guess what? sadly, it hasn't changed. the male ego.. tsk tsk... lol. anyway our conversation went something like this:-

jon: OI PEI MIN!!!!!
me: *looks around*
jon: here la!! *arms waving*
me: oh.. do i know you?
jon: sweat..... its jon la.. jonathan..? really dun remember arh?
me: um.. *thinks hard* oooh!! yaya remember!!
jon:haha.. i can see that your memory as bad as ever. good thing i'm still taller than you!
*conversation continues with more mundane stuff eg. where are u studying, etc...

wtf la that fella! i was wearing 2 1/2 inch heels! and he's still taller than me by a head!! and he kept rubbing that in every chance he got!

*gggrrr...*

so yeah, but it was still great bumping into him la :)

makes me notice how much i've grown.

hehe. i'm a big big girl now :D

lol.. okay, now for updates on my exams. 2 down, 3 more to go :

• ESL - not as good as i hoped. the guy was practically mumbling, especially during the second part. and essay was about online learning, i disagreed. lol, doubt i have the self-discipline needed and i doubt many people can sit in front of the com and ONLY STUDY!
• Maths - don't even ask. in 5 words: stupid stupid dumb dumb paper!

aih.. its too late to do anything about it now. might as well concentrate on the other 3 remaining papers - economics, psychology and accounts.

another thing that's giving me a headache - my prom dress. ish.. despite the less-than-2-weeks dateline, i still haven't found a dress. surprised? thanks a lot to my uncooperative mum and my oh-youngsters-nowadays-are-so-spoilt aunt. oh yeah.. i LOVE my life.. NOT!

right. i'll stop blogging now. and resume studying

(after i've facebook-ed, friendster-ed, msn-ed a little)

it's 1.35am on a saturday morning

and i should be *ahem* studying

right =P

still-chiling-despite-incoming-doom-me

oh yeah.. you must be wondering why on earth is this girl blogging

when her exam is less than 30 hours away..

well, if you must know, its because :-

(a) she feels bloated (from too much pasta)

(b) a side effect (from over-high caffeine intake)

now, i know you are gonna go "tsk tsk.." *shakes head* right?

well, just give me a break because f.y.i : I DID STUDY!

ha! just shows that i CAN be independent and disciplined

p.s. just don't expect this attitude often =P

i just found out that my cousin's visiting this thursday a.k.a Deepavali day a.k.a Maths finals

AARRGGHH!!! this is so so so annoying.. its supposed to be a goddamned public holiday!

these SSABSA people really have serious issues =="

*sigh*

well, nothing can be done,

and i guess i will just have to forgo the supposed-to-be-awesome breakfast with them.

usually, i wouldn't even grumble much.. i mean, i'm not even usually awake for breakfast. hehe, mornings are totally lost on me. what can i say? nobody's perfect...

but the thing is, is that they (notice the word 'they', not 'me' or 'us') will be joined by angeline's family. i haven't met angeline in ages! and i so so so miss her.. she used to be my shopping buddy before she moved away.. and of course daniel too a.k.a her still-kinda-cute older brother. hehe.. i remember a time when i had a crush on him. was very very awkward ==". well, that was like oh, bout 3 years ago.. i wonder how much has he changed? hmm..

well, no use thinking about it - because i will NOT be there. instead i'll probably be in some small, depressing, and cold room sitting for a stupid paper. yup.. i totally love my life - not!

okay, just thinking about this is depressing..

i'm like constantly telling myself to go study but i don't think its working. because believe it or not, i can argue with myself. and actually lose ==" . how pathetic is that? aih.. guess my id is waaay stronger and more domineering than my superego. wtf!

on a final note.. i did save some money - which probably won't last any longer than thursday. thats because i plan to go on a full fledged shopping spree on thursday, after the paper to soothe my soon-to-be bruised mind. ah.. whatever..

okay, its late. and i'm going to sleep..

*oops* did i just say 'sleep'?

erm.. haha.. i meant study of course..

i really aim to do that =)

wish me luck in succeeding* :) :)

*i'm probably gonna need it - seriously

immaterial world

its been 4 miserable morning since i got the new. and i honestly can't say i feel any better since then. well, at least the tears have stopped flowing.

thats something isn't it? at least i'm back in control and for that i'm grateful.

during those horrible moments where i didn't feel like myself, im glad to have those who were there. many comforting words were there. but i wan't you to know, that it wasn't really the words that mattered, but your support. you know who you are and i just wanna say thanks =)

so, on to happier and less depressing topics..

guess what???

i finally started studying.. HA!

lol.. i spent almost 3 hours of uninterupted study on psych

and im glad to say that i've finally mastered Topic 4 - Personality

*awww* im so proud of myself

*pat self on back*

i was so proud that i rewarded myself with a nice big chocolate ice-cream from baskin robbins. well.. actually, adrian rewarded me with a big chocolate ice-cream.. but i let him. so that counts right? hehe.

but thanks dear :)

well, im gonna try to nerd it tonight and finish Topic 5 too but i seriously doubt i'll succeed. the victory is still fresh in mind. haha. honestly, if i manage to finish till Topic 6 by tomorrow, im sooooo gonna reward myself this weekend. shopping anyone? hehe

last night was Halloween. not that i usually celebrate, but it was a fun night. went to lydia's party with adrian (he's supposingly my date) who abandoned me 5 minutes after we arrived. thanks a lot! wandered around a little, cause there were many people i din noe.. probably lydia's current friends but whatever.. anyway, there was this guy who approached me with a lame pick up line, trying to act cool. seriously pathetic =="

there was free flow of alcohol. but i didn't drink much. just a glass of wine. and i'm not lying! because unlike some people, i can control myself. right ken? =p

well, i took some pictures. unfortunately its with sara's cam, which meant that i will probably not get it till.. hmm... next year? and no, i won't beg you for it cz i know what you're gonna say: " too bad. who ask you never bring cam? my camera, my rules". am i correct in assuming so sara? lol. or did u just say that to annoy kev? haha

the internet connection is freaking slow!!!!!!!

arrgghH!!

i'm annoyed

maybe all i need is another ice-cream to cool me down

*hint hint* =P

well, its dinnertime

and i have a plate of spaghetti with my name on it

so ciao!

- i really should be studying instead of blogging shouldn't i?-

*sigh*

don't tell me,

i already know the answer

uncle sam, in memory

it is so easy to forget and take for granted what is always around. today, once again i have learned that we should always appreciate what we have, to cherish and treasure, as we never know when they will be lost, never to return, leaving only regret, grief and an aching emptiness. you never truly feel, how much something means to you, till its gone.

memories of when he used to hum, teach me rhymes, telling stories and stealing ice-cream for me keeps replaying over and over. memories i will cherish. i regret to say, that i haven't had the chance to tell him how much he meant to me. to say thank you.

he wasn't of family, yet he might as well have been.
uncle sam, this is for you:

u have always been there
to catch me when i fall
to make me laugh when i sulk
never once leaving me out
though i wasn't of family

for being my partner-in-crime
buying ice-cream, and small gifts
persuading aunt june,
that breaking the porcelain doll
wasn't my fault

taking me out
to the goddamn far park
keeping pace with my running feet
though u could barely walk smoothly
never once complaining

teaching me to play chess
with the patience of a saint
sometimes letting me win
when im down
just to cheer me up

being my babysitter
annoying as i was
though u didn't have to
allowing me to bug you
even while watching those chinese movies
that you enjoy so much

i regret
not taking the time
to talk more when im there
for sometimes throwing tantrums
i knew i was wrong
yet never thought to apologize
im truly sorry

i know you have suffered
not truly happy
after aunt june passed away
because unlike others of your time
you married out of love

yet you kept it locked inside
never once making us worry
only caring about others

uncle sam,

thank you for everything
without you, i wouldn't be who i am today

thank you
for saying you're proud of me
even though my results sux

thank you
for supporting what i want to do

thank you
just for being there
when i need you

no matter what. you'll always be family

rest in peace
god bless you

A Moment in Time

time passes ever so slowly

listening to the ticking of the clock

all i want is for this day to end

and reminiscing of the past

i've realised...

that

i can ever be so self-assured

filled with false confidence

simply to reassure myself

that i still have control of my life

that

i can no longer be protected

from the exclusion, heartache and despair

that is imposed

by people who have no life

that

love and friendship

can rarely co-exist together in a person

and just for that, i've learned

to appreciate those who could

finally i've realised

that

annoying siblings

does have its advantages occasionally

especially when they oh-so-accidently

drenched an unwelcome visitor

dressed in Ralph Lauren and Polo

with a whole can of coke

Oh the joy!

have you ever

felt alone, like a lone star on a moonless night?

have you ever

lost control, and was carried away by the tide?

have you ever

stopped dreaming, of what might have been?

have you ever

lost hope, in the one you love?

have you ever

got so bored, that you write junk like this?

i know i have :)

a little change

i felt a little something missing

like a piece of the jigsaw lost

and for some unknown reason, it feels totally wrong

something, somewhere, somehow

what it used to be has changed

find it difficult to explain the vibes i now feel

is it just me?

or has time changed us

till we no longer know

of who we used to be

a little time is all it takes

to change a lifetime of hopes and dreams

this is just me

losing control

in a raging storm

that wrestles for change

i feel lost

so lost..

thank you so much

for showing me what i've been missing

for letting me rage

for all the little things u did

for letting me know

for being there

thank you

i think i need sleep

Another Wedding...

went to ipoh for the wedding of erm.. another unknown-till-now uncle..

arrived at this quaint little town at 11am.

1st thought? cute...

no offense to ipoh ppl, but u guys only have 2 malls!

what do u guys do when ur bored??

on the other hand, u've got great food. so i guess there are some compensations.

apparently this month is an auspicious month. so EVERYBODY is getting married.

ish..

had to borrow a dress from ade..

(thx a lot girl! love you *hugs*)

cz i absolutely refuse to wear the same dresses i wore at the past 4 weddings this month!

camwhoring b4 leaving for the dinner

with my dear cousin (check out my eyebags - they're horrible - ugh!)

my gorgeous mum

met a lot of unknown relatives.. at least i THINK they're related..

anyways, got back like abt 11pm

but was damn tired, so fell asleep almost immediately

actually i'm not even sure why i'm posting this..

nothing much to say

'cept THANX ADELINE NG HAN HUI!!!

Post Trials Outing

trials was finally over!
unfortunately, econs was the last paper..
which meant that i hadn't studied as hard as i should have

i din have the mood - so sue me....

anyway, this should actually have been posted ages ago..

but due to some technical errors (mainly NOT getting the pics from mel..)
this post has been delayed.. and so has the others.

after the paper ended, we decided to go to the curve - redbox
when i said 'we' i meant more than half of L4. lol. this proves to be rather interesting.

anyways, almost all of us got a little lost on the way, tempers were a little high and everyone was feeling annoyed. well, emo-ed a little.then arrived there just to find out that we can only start k-ing at 3pm.. another 1 hour away.

so we split up. found out px had to go home earlier than planned. poor gal...

met yc at nishee fashion house (or something like dat). its truly a fashion trove! omg.. i was super tempted to spend my allowance.. thank goodness they don't have my size.. else there goes my pocket money...

so yeah. went karaoke-ing. found out that we had a few hardcore korean fans.. mainly emily who practically had the mic glued to her hand xD. lol. well, can't really blame her.. she's a great singer + its her 1st time. and oh yeah, kudos to michelle.. she's one heck of a singer!

for some reason, zhunkit reminds me of a monkey..

yc, emily (when she's not hogging the mic), me

wif meow meow

darling anna

we ppl

the whole gang (sorry picture small, copy from mel's blog)

camwhores united

this time i didn't drink as much.. mainly due to the fact thet the tien keat is there.. haha. we had a few drunk ppl this time - derek and joe. and they only drank a little ==".

a little trivia:-

when derek is drunk: he talks non-stop

when joe is drunk: EVERYBODY looks like pei xia... xD

derek in drunk mode

an apparently high mel and a still sober joe wif px

also found out that when L4 gets high, an outburst of gay-ism breaks out. e.g.

check out the tongue..

caught in action..

anyways, finished at about 6pm and decided to go look for food

dun ask

random camwhoring =)

walked around in circles for almost half an hour before we finally did the smart thing and break up into 3 groups: mel, zhunkit, yunling to TGIF; derek and anna to Sushi King; keat, emily and me to Little Penang.

can't quite remember wht we ordered. jz remembered something about keat's chicken running away from the cook.. lol

anyways, went home after dinner. felt damn potong.. cz even my parents are not home! ish..
but i went out agn la.. hehe.. Brian ajak go yam cha. somehow ended up at Jess's hse.. agn... lol. that place is like my second home already. did a little more drinking. got a litlle high. and made some lame jokes. anyway, finally got home at 2am. kena zha by my mum...

and thats it
-THE END-

once agn, sry for the delayed post.
its now time to sleep.
nitez ppl~