PC / PD

stupid stupid virus!!!

make me have to send for repair. will take 'a few days' according to the guy.. i bet it takes at least a week.. damned if it takes 2 weeks -.- . well, i can't do anything about it. just hope it comes back to me soon..

WAAAAAA~~~

what am i gonna do at home now??!

no more facebook-ing, no more friendster-ing, no more blogging...

*omg* no more chatting!! die!!!

my hp bill sure increase d... and i'm broke =(

jun told me to meet him at cindy's hse on sunday

normally, i'd decline, seeing its that time of the year again..

but then you know what??!!

*gasp* that donkey threatened me!

(and i'm not gonna tell u with what)

that was the lowest, evil-est, meanest, underhanded thing to do!

and if he'd stoop that low to make me go...

i'm afraid to think what's in store for me..

me very scared =(

somebody save me!

oh, on the bright side, i've already gotten my bday pressie from sue ^^. i heart that girls loads!! i hope she's enjoying her time in Korea now... misses her lots... she got me this totally cute red mickey mouse pillow =D.. *awww* a really hadn't expected anything and i was really surprised when she gave it to me at the airport. haha.. everyone (kmeng, liying, edison, jeremy, kim, lisa, wing, sue, jon, steve) shouted 'happy 18th birthday' so loud that everyone, like seriously, EVERYONE was staring at me - even the old man who was checking in at the counter! gosh, i didn't know to feel happy or embarressed. haha.. ask anyone there, and they'll tell you how red my face was..

oh yeah, i promised i'd post some pics didn't i?

here's a summary of my PD trip:

woke up at 7am on wednesday morning. got ready by 8am. delayed cause my cousin refused to bath ==" till 9.30am. btw, my cousin's only 4 yrs old. so anyway, had breakfast at some restaurant near my aunt's house at kota damansara. i didn't eat much cz i was still sleepy. regretted it at about 11am while on the road. thankfully, i had my chocolate bar - Snickers! yay me! smart of me to bring le...

with my sis, in the car

arrived in town, just in time for lunch. drove around a little, and despite telling my dad there's alomst nothing there to eat in the afternoon, he didn't believe me. so yeah, basically drove around, starving everyone till he finally gave in and took my suggestion: KFC

lunch

so after lunch, checked in at the Avillion Port Dickson. kinda nice actually... except for the fact that they have a teeny weenie cage they call the 'Orchid Garden' which even my house garden surpasses, and an under equipped and freaking isolated gym. hotel restaurants are also a little er.. wierd. cz they have this restaurant called the crow's nest which required formal dressing, tie and all tht... seriously, who actually brings formal wear to the beach??!!

random shots of the hotel and grounds

my room (127) - shared with my brother and cousin

the deck in the evening

so yeah, swam a little (at the hotel pool.. no way i'm entering the sea!), get darker by the day, ate a lot - mostly seafood, basically slacked a lot... so 3 days passed, went home, slept.

THE END

hehe.. potong rite?

lol.. and thats my family vacation of the year...

so yeah, due to the factor mentioned above, i may not be online, facebook-ing, friendste-ing or blogging for a short (hopefully) period of time. my apologies. however, u'r always free to call.

if you have my number of course =p

okay, gotta return the laptop now. buy for now. will miss you sorely my dear internet (despite the lousy connection) *sobs*

yeah, so what if i'm melodramatic?

it adds spice to the world doesnt it?

you don't have to say it, but i know you love me anyway

*awww*

(ss-ing: do not disturb)

lol

i crack myself up sometimes...

i *heart* me

If you think your first date was embarrassing...

If you didn't see this on the Tonight show, I hope you're sitting down when you read it. This is probably the funniest date story ever, first date or not!!!We have all had bad dates but this takes the cake. Jay Leno went into the audience to find the most embarrassing first date that a woman ever had. The winner described her worst first date experience. There was absolutely no question as to why her tale took the prize!

She said it was midwinter... Snowing and quite cold... and the guy had taken her skiing in the mountains outside SaltLakeCity, Utah. It was a day trip (no overnight). They were strangers, after all, and had never met before. The outing was fun but relatively uneventful until they were headed home late that afternoon.

They were driving back down the mountain, when she gradually began to realize that she should not have had that extra latte. They were about an hour away from anywhere with a rest room and in the middle of nowhere!Her companion suggested she try to hold it, which she did for a while. Unfortunately, because of the heavy snow and slow going, there came a point where she told him that he had better stop and let her go beside the road, or it would be the front seat of his car.

They stopped and she quickly crawled out beside the car, yanked her pants down and started. In the deep snow she didn't have good footing, so she let her butt rest against the rear fender to steady herself. Her companion stood on the side of the car watching for traffic and indeed was a real gentleman and refrained from peeking. All she could think about was the relief she felt despite the rather embarrassing nature of the situation.

Upon finishing however, she soon became aware of another sensation. As she bent to pull up her pants, the young lady discovered her buttocks were firmly glued against the car's fender. Thoughts of tongues frozen to poles immediately came to mind as she attempted to disengage her flesh from the icy metal. It wasquickly apparent that she had a brand new problem. Due to the extreme cold.

Horrified by her plight and yet aware of the humor of the moment, she answered her date's concerns about"what is taking so long" with a reply that indeed, she was "freezing her butt off" and in need of some assistance! He came around the car as she tried to cover herself with her sweater and then, as she looked imploringly into his eyes, he burst out laughing. She too,got the giggles and when they finally managed to compose themselves, they assessed her dilemma.

Obviously, as hysterical as the situation was, they also were faced with a real problem. Both agreed it would take something hot to free her chilly cheeks from the grip of the icy metal! Thinking about what had gotten her into the predicament in the first place, both quickly realized that there was only one way to get her free. So, as she looked the other way, her first time date proceeded to unzip his pants and pee her butt off the fender.

As the audience screamed in laughter, she took theTonight Show prize hands down. Or perhaps that should be "pants down. "And you thought your first date was embarrassing. Jay Leno's comment..."This gives a whole new meaning to being pissed off."

Oh, and how did the first date turn out?

He became her husband and was sitting next to her on the Leno show.

If you laughed... pass it on!

*thanks for the e-mail ven =D

a lil' msg from me to me..

i'm lacking sleep again. and i have to get up at 7am tmr!!!

haihz.. i don't know how i'm ever gonna make it..

been a little hectic these past few days.

what with joyce's and adeline's birthdays.

and then people trying to book my time

honestly....... =="

missed the class trip (college) which started yesterday

they went malacca

sad

hope they had fun =)

will miss them

especially those who live far far away and will be going back soon

sad

went out with JN yesterday.

went for dinner at pj.

some seafood restaurant.

food not bad.

price quite reasonable.

might go there again.

except i don't know how :p

no worries, i'll ask him :)

but i'm broke.

so no expensive food in the near future.

daddy didn't give any allowance =(

me poor again.

haiz..

going PD tmr.

i'm gonna get darker

warning: may not be recognisable when back

just hope i get an even tan

hehe

random trip to genting tdy

stupid brian

he told me only going batu caves to eat

ended up in genting

dumb dumb

wanted to drag me into casino

but i good girl

never go in

cause still underage

but he hurt my arm =(

so i made him buy me ice-cream

i feel better now =D

reached home at about 7pm

just in time for dinner

they wanted to go eat pizza

but since i such a good girl

i came home

to spend time with my family

ended up with Korean dinner

now a little bored

sien...

dunno what to blog

sorry for posting such a wierd post. this is highly unlike me. but i just read the lame_queen's blog. this is just like her style. maybe stuck in my unconscious mind. then ter-copy her blogging style. hmm...

my darling lynn went to england today. will be back in 2 weeks. wish her safe journey. also a great time there. envy her. i wanna go to!!! lol. but obviously i can't. so, i'll just stay here. in m'sia. waiting for my souvenir - which WILL NOT be a box of chocolates, bought from the airport... *hint hint* (lynn, i know u read my blog.. *blek*)

okay. i feel funny again. and chien isn't here to make me laugh. so i'll just go indulge in a bar of chocolate. i think i'm growing fat - to the approval of my granma. damn! i need to start exercising. been slacking for a year now. better start again. just wished it wasn't so hard. i seriously lack discipline...

was talking to myself in the mirror again (adeline would know what i'm talking about). my mum heard. i bet she thinks i've lost my mind. again.

a note to jun:

stop laughing!! its your fault! its always your fault! but no one ever believes me.. ish..

and beware.. i'm gonna get my revenge... someday..

MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA (evil laugh)

*blek*

dumb@ss!!

i'm pissed
i'm irritated
i'm annoyed

and i'm NOT HAVING PMS!

had a call from an old 'friend' today. i was ready to bury the hatchet, willing to forgive. but was he satisfied?? oh nooooooooo..... he wanted more and guess what? he wanted to be 'more than friends' again. this is the conv, quoted verbatim:

@rseh0le: hey, free to chat? long time no talk d...
me: sure.. i guess... (i was a little shocked)
@rseh0le : great. i was kinda bored. broke up with celine earlier. she was getting boring.
me: erm... *speechless*
@rseh0le: hey, wanna be my gf again? i've always found you interesting..

broke up and asked me barely 3 hours later?? find me 'interesting'????!

does he really think that i'll be stupid enough to be his arm candy again??!

who does he think he is??!

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fyi. i have yet to forget the betrayal and hurt you put me through! and you think i can simply forget the insults??!! do you think you can once again use me and then discard me like some old rag doll??! oh puh-lease! for one thing, i've learnt my lesson and that is to never trust a lying, conniving ungrateful skunk like you!!

i have only one thing to say to you buster!
GET A F******* LIFE!!!

my darling geisha

here's a post about one of the people i love most (as a friend! i'm straight k - dun get any ideas!)

there was this girl i met back in form 4. believe it or not, i was extremely shy then and honestly, i had difficulty mixing with my then new classmates. then along came this girl with a wide smile and a cheerful grin. i remembered that she knew at least half the class and often came to talk to the 2 girls in front of me. somehow, we started talking and i guess we became fast friends. she's one of the most optimistic person i ever knew, always looking on the bright side of things, rarely grumbling or complaining. supportive too i might add. i really don't know what i would've done if she wasn't there for me throughout the year. yeap.. she's my sweetheart...

one thing though, shopping with her is an absolute nightmare. i mean serious shopping of course - hanging out don't count. why? as i said before, she's extremely nice to the point where her opinion isn't to be trusted. honestly, everything is nice to her no matter what you try on... and somehow, at the end of the day, i will somehow find my cash severely depleted.. not a good thing.. lol

but she's a great buddy to hang out with. i can always count on her to listen and gossip with me.. and of course, she's a full fledged camwhore too =D we can take pictures ANYWHERE. haha..

fast forward 2 years later where everyone splits up to pursue their education at numerous colleges and schools. me, adeline and yean ling went to taylors whereas she continued in form 6. this choice may also be influenced by the fact that she was chosen to go for NS - as i was. but she actually went, whereas i simply deferred (hopefully they've forgotten about me). as hers was the second batch - march till june, it was impossible for her to enrol in the same course as ours. hence, form 6. from that time onwards, we rarely met, an only when we persuaded her AND her mum to allow her to hang out.

recently, i found out that she's moving to a far far faraway place (yeah.. i'm exaggerating.. but its far enough that it would be difficult for us to meet up) in less than 3 weeks time. no longer will she be a mere 15 mins away. i'm really gonna miss her loads. i'm sad. my darling geisha, we ARE gonna keep in touch right?

misses u lotz.. =(

*hugs*

stupid accounts

I'M SAD

not depressed, but not happy either.

so many things are happening all at once and i feel as if i'm on an accelerating conveyor belt, moving towards a climax where i either emerge the victor of my inner demons or plunge into despair.

hard to say which, as i feel as if i could go either way now.

telling people, trying to share isn't helping either.

i mean the advises were pretty much the same,

eg. "dun think so much", "don't worry", "just relax", etc...

AARRGGGHHHH!!!

how can i NOT think and worry???

i mean, its something that is done unconsciously right?

f.y.i, its not exactly my intention to to stress myself out and get pimples!

gosh.. even the internet is going against me! y is the line so slow???

nah, i'm not in the mood to share my problems here.

maybe another time - when i'm less frustrated - and when the line gets better.

i want to scream but i don't want my mum barging into my room, asking me if i'm ok.

I'M NOT OKAY!!!

but i don't know why and how to answer if anyone asks.

for all i know, she'll just consider them a trivialty, and thats worse. its bad enough not having the same interests, but to consider my problems trivial (and i might very well be..) is just to much for me to handle at this moment.

I NEED TO CHILL

yeah.. i know.. i keep telling myself that too..

but it's also possible that i'm chilling too much

I'M GONNA DIE

yup.. no surprise there either.. seeing its 3 hours of accounts i'm facing tomorrow

sorry susan ong. i tried my best, but i simply hate your subject..

and yeah.. when i die, make sure u all give me a nice eulogy k?

maybe some flowers would be nice too.. its up to you of course.

but do remember me in your memories...

yeah.. i'm wallowing in self-pity...

so what if i am?! it's my blog and i can do whatever i want! so there!

hmph!

p.s. stupid accounts.....

Feeling, Thoughts, Emotions

Who am I – what makes me think – what do I feel – what do I think?
I am an individual with thoughts and feelings that extend beyond my family and friends.

There are thinks that can take my breath away – sunsets, storm clouds, flowers, a lover’s kiss.

Or make me cry – old photographs, goodbyes, touching movies and songs, an argument.

Or make me queasy – runny egg whites, slimy bugs, dead and stinky fish.

Or give me goose bumps – horror movies, feelings of deja-vu, the dentist with his rubber gloves, Moonlight Sonata.

Or make me feel good – ice-creams, chocolates, shopping, vacations, manicures.

Or make me laugh – comedies, friends (watching YC laugh or Jun trying to be funny).

Or make me crabby – long line-ups, rude people, slow internet connection, basically things not working out.

Or confuse me – computers, electronics, accounts, arithmetic.

Or captivate me – a good book, gossips, high heels, my room, my friends, and my camera, the pimple on my nose.

I’ve often been rather reclusive. Rarely sharing what I feel, and even then, only to a certain few. Why? I don’t know. Maybe it’s just because I find it hard to fully trust someone. This is not meant to offend anybody, it’s just me. A lousy past has a way of making one wary. Perhaps a little too much. I’ve been trying to get over it though and I’d like to believe I’m succeeding, even if it’s at a snail’s pace. At least I’m advancing, and that’s all that matters right?

There are many things I regret – stupid arguments, words that should not have been said, time that was wasted, money that could have been saved.

Many flaws in me that I wished I could’ve changed – mood swings, sarcasm, low tolerance, high temper, spoilt mannerism, selfishness.

There are many things about me that many people don’t like. But what the heck, nobody’s perfect. And if you expect me to be, I would advise you to take a look at yourself first. Past experiences have shown me not to be a hypocrite. I’ve been gossiped, back-stabbed, betrayed, disappointed, heart-broken and depressed.

Watching others who are extroverts, watching them extend their influence. Yes, I do envy them for their social skills. I wished I could be as open, as funny, and as smart. But to be like that, is to forsake who I’m meant to be and who I can be. I have realized that I am an individual, unique in my own way, loved for being me. I love myself. My friends love me. My family loves me. And that is all that matters.

It’s amazing what I can think when I’m staring at the blank spaces on the paper in front of me, TRYING (obviously not suceeding) to study for an exam which is in 2 days time, failing miserably. Thinking about me (talk about self-opinioned!) when I am fully aware that the grades I’m going to get will determine the balance between life and death (by my dad).

Yeah, I do amaze myself sometimes too.

And no, I’m not emo-ing either.

And I’ve absolutely no idea why are you reading this. Or want to for that matter.

a different me

listening to the pattering of the rain
i find myself thinking about how much i've changed
from one who used to be super shy - still am
to be who i am today

sometimes nowadays i find myself unsure of who i am and what i have become.
no longer do i feel content to be just me.
no longer can i honestly say "i love me, myself and i".
and i don't know why...

sometimes, just sometimes,
i feel like i'm all alone
despite having friends all around me
no offence to you guys, of course..
i just feel alone - and not in a good way

earlier, while i was chatting with a friend
he told me he felt like shutting himself up in a closet
never to come out
despite ridiculing him
i felt like i knew what he meant
this isn't good

this isn't good at all...

i've never been one to share whenever i need help
never, until i break down
and then i'm a pitiful sight
and i apologize to those ppl who knew
for burdening you with my insignificant little troubles

but then again, if you weren't there for me,
who are you to call yourself a friend?

this is a crappy little post from a crappy little blogger
(who's supposed to be studying)

right.

i'm supposed to be bored with blogger. been concentrating more on my xanga account. but really, i'm addicted. and u can't blame me. cz honestly, don't you think you'd rather blog than study? studying stuff which i cannot remember. staring at the tiny words across the textbook, trying to make sense of graphs and tables. i'm annoyed and grumpy. bah!

by the way, happy birthday li jean :) sorry i couldn't make it for your party. mum wouldn't let. say need study :( haihz.. another totally wasted weekend...