uncle sam, in memory

it is so easy to forget and take for granted what is always around. today, once again i have learned that we should always appreciate what we have, to cherish and treasure, as we never know when they will be lost, never to return, leaving only regret, grief and an aching emptiness. you never truly feel, how much something means to you, till its gone.

memories of when he used to hum, teach me rhymes, telling stories and stealing ice-cream for me keeps replaying over and over. memories i will cherish. i regret to say, that i haven't had the chance to tell him how much he meant to me. to say thank you.

he wasn't of family, yet he might as well have been.
uncle sam, this is for you:

u have always been there
to catch me when i fall
to make me laugh when i sulk
never once leaving me out
though i wasn't of family

for being my partner-in-crime
buying ice-cream, and small gifts
persuading aunt june,
that breaking the porcelain doll
wasn't my fault

taking me out
to the goddamn far park
keeping pace with my running feet
though u could barely walk smoothly
never once complaining

teaching me to play chess
with the patience of a saint
sometimes letting me win
when im down
just to cheer me up

being my babysitter
annoying as i was
though u didn't have to
allowing me to bug you
even while watching those chinese movies
that you enjoy so much

i regret
not taking the time
to talk more when im there
for sometimes throwing tantrums
i knew i was wrong
yet never thought to apologize
im truly sorry

i know you have suffered
not truly happy
after aunt june passed away
because unlike others of your time
you married out of love

yet you kept it locked inside
never once making us worry
only caring about others

uncle sam,

thank you for everything
without you, i wouldn't be who i am today

thank you
for saying you're proud of me
even though my results sux

thank you
for supporting what i want to do

thank you
just for being there
when i need you

no matter what. you'll always be family

rest in peace
god bless you

A Moment in Time

time passes ever so slowly

listening to the ticking of the clock

all i want is for this day to end

and reminiscing of the past

i've realised...

that

i can ever be so self-assured

filled with false confidence

simply to reassure myself

that i still have control of my life

that

i can no longer be protected

from the exclusion, heartache and despair

that is imposed

by people who have no life

that

love and friendship

can rarely co-exist together in a person

and just for that, i've learned

to appreciate those who could

finally i've realised

that

annoying siblings

does have its advantages occasionally

especially when they oh-so-accidently

drenched an unwelcome visitor

dressed in Ralph Lauren and Polo

with a whole can of coke

Oh the joy!

have you ever

felt alone, like a lone star on a moonless night?

have you ever

lost control, and was carried away by the tide?

have you ever

stopped dreaming, of what might have been?

have you ever

lost hope, in the one you love?

have you ever

got so bored, that you write junk like this?

i know i have :)

a little change

i felt a little something missing

like a piece of the jigsaw lost

and for some unknown reason, it feels totally wrong

something, somewhere, somehow

what it used to be has changed

find it difficult to explain the vibes i now feel

is it just me?

or has time changed us

till we no longer know

of who we used to be

a little time is all it takes

to change a lifetime of hopes and dreams

this is just me

losing control

in a raging storm

that wrestles for change

i feel lost

so lost..

thank you so much

for showing me what i've been missing

for letting me rage

for all the little things u did

for letting me know

for being there

thank you

i think i need sleep

Another Wedding...

went to ipoh for the wedding of erm.. another unknown-till-now uncle..

arrived at this quaint little town at 11am.

1st thought? cute...

no offense to ipoh ppl, but u guys only have 2 malls!

what do u guys do when ur bored??

on the other hand, u've got great food. so i guess there are some compensations.

apparently this month is an auspicious month. so EVERYBODY is getting married.

ish..

had to borrow a dress from ade..

(thx a lot girl! love you *hugs*)

cz i absolutely refuse to wear the same dresses i wore at the past 4 weddings this month!

camwhoring b4 leaving for the dinner

with my dear cousin (check out my eyebags - they're horrible - ugh!)

my gorgeous mum

met a lot of unknown relatives.. at least i THINK they're related..

anyways, got back like abt 11pm

but was damn tired, so fell asleep almost immediately

actually i'm not even sure why i'm posting this..

nothing much to say

'cept THANX ADELINE NG HAN HUI!!!

Post Trials Outing

trials was finally over!
unfortunately, econs was the last paper..
which meant that i hadn't studied as hard as i should have

i din have the mood - so sue me....

anyway, this should actually have been posted ages ago..

but due to some technical errors (mainly NOT getting the pics from mel..)
this post has been delayed.. and so has the others.

after the paper ended, we decided to go to the curve - redbox
when i said 'we' i meant more than half of L4. lol. this proves to be rather interesting.

anyways, almost all of us got a little lost on the way, tempers were a little high and everyone was feeling annoyed. well, emo-ed a little.then arrived there just to find out that we can only start k-ing at 3pm.. another 1 hour away.

so we split up. found out px had to go home earlier than planned. poor gal...

met yc at nishee fashion house (or something like dat). its truly a fashion trove! omg.. i was super tempted to spend my allowance.. thank goodness they don't have my size.. else there goes my pocket money...

so yeah. went karaoke-ing. found out that we had a few hardcore korean fans.. mainly emily who practically had the mic glued to her hand xD. lol. well, can't really blame her.. she's a great singer + its her 1st time. and oh yeah, kudos to michelle.. she's one heck of a singer!

for some reason, zhunkit reminds me of a monkey..

yc, emily (when she's not hogging the mic), me

wif meow meow

darling anna

we ppl

the whole gang (sorry picture small, copy from mel's blog)

camwhores united

this time i didn't drink as much.. mainly due to the fact thet the tien keat is there.. haha. we had a few drunk ppl this time - derek and joe. and they only drank a little ==".

a little trivia:-

when derek is drunk: he talks non-stop

when joe is drunk: EVERYBODY looks like pei xia... xD

derek in drunk mode

an apparently high mel and a still sober joe wif px

also found out that when L4 gets high, an outburst of gay-ism breaks out. e.g.

check out the tongue..

caught in action..

anyways, finished at about 6pm and decided to go look for food

dun ask

random camwhoring =)

walked around in circles for almost half an hour before we finally did the smart thing and break up into 3 groups: mel, zhunkit, yunling to TGIF; derek and anna to Sushi King; keat, emily and me to Little Penang.

can't quite remember wht we ordered. jz remembered something about keat's chicken running away from the cook.. lol

anyways, went home after dinner. felt damn potong.. cz even my parents are not home! ish..
but i went out agn la.. hehe.. Brian ajak go yam cha. somehow ended up at Jess's hse.. agn... lol. that place is like my second home already. did a little more drinking. got a litlle high. and made some lame jokes. anyway, finally got home at 2am. kena zha by my mum...

and thats it
-THE END-

once agn, sry for the delayed post.
its now time to sleep.
nitez ppl~

a little early celebration...

had my psych paper yesterday. totally blanked out and i bugged michelle and yee chien non stop on CBT right till the last minute. haha..

anywayz, class was freezing cold. typically, adeline's phone alarm went off twice. michelle said she didn't have time to complete her essay *sigh* and i was thinking of the 20 minutes i spent stoning, drawing on the scribbling paper and generally looking around at the efforts of adeline and renee trying to get the teacher's attention... well, at least its over now and i'll only panic when shobes finishes marking (which won't be so soon)..

hung around in college for some time before we (i meant chelle, yc, px, joe and me) decided it was too wierd. then went to ac while waiting for chelle's dad to pick her up..

the rest of us originally planned to go "sVenson's" for ice-cream at Parade...

after walking on planks, dirt, sand and basically uneven ground which definitely ISN'T fun on heels, found out that swenson's isn't open.. (it was about 10 something). so went back in to parade where we walked around alot. i couldn't bring myself to go near Voir cause i know i'll be spending my money on shoes.. agn... *sigh*

lunch at Dave's Deli, where i felt soooooooooooooooooo wierd. no thx to my dear 2 insanely high friends, mainly yeechien and peixia.. who woudn't stop talking,

no, laughing about their obsession(s)

are you in anyway jealous joe? lol..

thank god i didn't get any nightmares last night!!

had mushroom soup, oxtail soup, garlic bread. and spaghetti for joe.

so later, walked around, checked out:-

'little black book' - no joe, it isn't a bookstore...

'skin food' - agn joe, it isn't a restaurant...

among others. had the urge to spend but resisted.

YAY ME!! xD

so bout 2++pm, left parade. had to walk in the rain to joe's car. felt sand in my heels. *sigh*

while on the way to dropping yc at ac, saw adeline, renee and jon walking toward salmon steak. as typical maniacs, we yelled. got some stares from surrounding passerby's... but what the heck la..

so dropped me home.. thx :)


at the exact moment i entered my room, got a call from adrian. ask me go Swensons...
lol, i felt damn zha dou. i just came back from parade.. (luckily nvr go with px, yc, and joe).

so another 20 mins and i'm off to parade yet again..

damn funny thing happened. ken was trying to feed me and his spoon of ice-cream fell into adrian's drink.. haha.. then i started laughing and couldn't stop... till i accidently hit adrian's elbow while he was tring to scoop out some ice-cream. um.. and the whole spoonful of icecream + drink fell into his lap.... rofl...

im so soo sooooo sorry adrian!!!

hahahahahaha...

so anyway after everyone cooled down, like 2 hours later, finally stopped annoying the other patrons there. bet the waitress was glad we were going.. lol...

supposed to go home, but weihan didn't want to go home. lol, somehow we ended up in pyramid.. and then redbox... honestly, of all places... =="

had a great time, spent more time going totally nuts than actually singing. jess and sam joined us. was there till bout 11pm.. then went drink sumore at some restaurant nearby.. forgot what's the name.. anyways, at 1am, finally went home, cz jess had a curfew which was supposed to be at 12 but somehow we forgot the time..

so before i'm accused of being ungrateful, just wanna say thx to chelle, yc, px and joe for the time in parade, and adr, weihan, ken, lisa, jess, sam, ming and ralf for the great time in the evening. without u guys, i'll probably be stoning at home, all alone..... xD

*would have posted some pictures if i had brought my camera.. cz my naturally cacat phone is just to useless! some pics were taken but its in either weihan, adr or sam's phone... which as usual probably means tht i wun get it till another 3-4 months? lol. typical la..

the current crisis...

friday(21st sept): maths
monday(24th sept): ESL

tuesday(25th sept): accounts at
wednesday(26th sept): psychology
friday(28th sept): economics

i have officially screwed maths and accounts

now all the best i can hope for is that i at least score a respectable mark in the other 3 subjects

psych is in another 4 hours...

*sigh*

the bloody exam starts at 7.00am

which means i gotta be there by 6.30AM..

the sky is still dark damnit!

ish.. these people have serious issues... =="

well, after finishing accounts today

can confirm that accounts is a definite goner

even people like ian and yunling said they couldn't do

(not that i actually believe them..)

lastly, i think i need to apologize to someone... and another someone. cz apparently i've been ditching them for quite some time.. never say hi when THEY see ME in ac (i didn't notice u guys.. sry sry).. not hanging out with them for the last 10 weeks? gosh.. u guys are soo demanding! lol.. yeah.. so now im accused of being a ditcher... so, very sorry. but in my own defence, i wish to say that unlike some ppl, i do try to study... a little anyway. besides, i've had so many assignments these last few weeks its a miracle i actually still get to sleep. nevertheless, please accept my sincere apologizes...

a random picture to beautify this post:-

ok.. i seriously NEED to study my psych.

i'm not even sure what i'm doing here at this hour.

=="

a desire to cook...

It all started when great granma Renee had a sudden craving to cook...

Naturally she just had to invite her husband, affair, daughter, granddaughter, great grandaughter... family friends...

so anyways, renee, mel, ade, me and not forgetting our driver, zhunkit

in the car

went to Carrefour to shop for the food and the amount totalled up to rm112.

(thk god we brought enough!)

Dinner Menu

Appetizer

garlic bread

chicken mushroom soup

honey salad

Main Course

spaghetti

fried chicken

Dessert

longan and peach

Drink

adeline's special mix

(i'm not sure whats in it.. =P)

SO...

we peeled, we chopped, we washed, we stirred, we cooked and we talked
apparently, we're very technology-minded as some of the more memorable conversation is about fixing computers and silent modes... hehe

yee chien and her bread..

"FIRE!!!!!!" kidding =D its jz loads of smoke..

our hard work (minus soup, dessert and drinks)

top: mel, yeechien, min

bottom: jon, renee, adeline, zhunkit

great night but i can't help but think its at the wrong time

TRIALS starts in 4 days time!!!

but hey, we should enjoy life while we still can right?

ok. i should start studying now. =)