Monday, March 31, 2008

a great writer

here's something for all those aspiring journalists:-


There was once a young man who, in his youth, professed a desire to become a "great" writer.
When asked to define "great" he said "I want to write stuff that the whole world will read, stuff that people will react to on a truly emotional level, stuff that will make them scream, cry, wail, howl in pain, desperation, and anger!"
...
...
...
He now works for Microsoft writing error messages.

moral: DON'T end up like this. unless you get paid a lot.


skipping classes? no fear! here's an easy guide to become a hard hitting journalist!


okay. lame update.
but hey, it's better than nothing right? =D
gonna go take a nap now.
miss me ^___^

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Being Me


i've been tagged!!!!!
by both ade n mel...

(i've actually also been tagged by sam some time ago - but i gave up doing his cz it was just to long.. sowee!)
since this is much MUCH shorter, i guess i'll take a shot at it..



INSTRUCTIONS:
Remove one question from below, add in your own (personal), to make a total of 20.


1. At what age do you wish to be married?
*blank look* married????! i'm only nineteeeeeeeennnnnn!!!!!!!
but if i really have to think about it seriously, i'd guess about erm.. 26-30? cz studying would take up another 2 years for a degree.. and then i'd have give myself time to adapt or maybe go travelling before i really really settle down.. and IF i find my soul mate of course.. can't get married without Mr.Right huh?


2. What is the best thing that happened this year?
knowing i have awesome friends to pull me through the year!


3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?


i wanna go to France. i don't know why. i've jz had this dream ever since i was young about picturesque cafe's, gorgeous wine valleys and blue skies and of course, shopping sprees in Paris!


4. If you can have one dream come true, what would it be?
i'd guess i have to say that at the end of it all, i've gotta be able to live with myself. not literally - cz that would be super freaky, but i just want to be happy and contented. so yeah.


5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
honestly, no. not for long anyway. and like a friend of mine so aptly puts it "money isn't everything, but it keeps us alive" (ade, 2008) >.<


6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
my self respect. my family. my friends.


7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?


i'd donate 250k to charity - probably to UN or something for those poor kids starving (i'm serious). probably about 200k for my own studies overseas, jz to lift my dad's burden. 100k to treat my family and friends - maybe to a well-deserved holiday somewhere. 50k for shopping and the rest to be invested. i may be a little self-centred, but hey, i've never pretended to be an angel...


8. If you meet someone that you love, will you confess to him/her?
i guess i will... eventually...

i'm amazingly gutless when it comes to this sort of thing...

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.


Ade: she's a total nutcase, but extremely likable (fortunately or unfortunately depending on your point of view), always there if you need help - both emotionally and physically (guys who bully me: beware!!!), and finally, i just love her =)
Mel: extremely amusing, lovable and darn cute. oh yeah, she's good for shopping excursions too..


10. What requirement you wish from your other half?
taller than me! (if you know my actual height, you would find that this isn't difficult to accomplish); loyal - cz if u were my half, i'd trust you completely and i don't want to be betrayed; chemistry - the thing that connects us both; and of course, love. for obvious reasons.


11. What kind of person you hate the most?

backstabbers, snobs and despo ppl who need a life. i've seen too many. ugh!


12. If you are give the chance to go back into the past and make a difference, will you?
i don't know. i want to - just so i can full appreciate what i've lost/will lose (ergh! whatever.. timelines give me a headache). but yet, if i change the past, will i still be who i am today?


13. What is your most embarrassing moment in your life?
er.. too embarressed to talk about it here =/ sry...


14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?


♥ love is what makes the world go round ♥


15. If there's ever a war (or something similar) happening in your place, are you gonna move to a safer place or hide?
hide duh.. not that i'm a chicken *ahem ahem*..
but what will i do in the battefield? become bait?
no thanks!


16. If you have the chance, which part of your character will you like to change?
have more discipline and stop being such a lazy bum? imagine all the stuff i could've done if i didn't lay around all day watching cartoons and eating donuts...


17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
i'd rather not mention any names. but you know who you are ♥


18. What's your weakest point?


i'm easily distracted. by anything. really...


19. Whats the thing that you're most proud of?
my enormous ability to love myself for the way i am.


20. What is the one thing you regret most?


not saying sorry when it mattered



i tag: Jo-Lyn, Kristine, Teck Weng and whoever else that happens to read this! ha!

Thursday, March 27, 2008

living past another day.

firstly. jz a random picture that i really heart ♥


you see the plainest one? yeah.. that's me. pure and innocent >.<


presentation on monday was ok. but i felt really bad cz i forgot my lines and had to improvise right there on the spot. haihz. i'm sorry u guys. but your performance was great... though i don't know why ms.aparna so perasan abt sue's character. lol. anyways, yeah.. donkey's performance really hit the spot and i think you were the crowd favorite =)

self-named king kong and donkey


aha! i caught you.. you.. you poser!!!

a rare pic with suemay. she nt very camwhorish with me =(

ms.jo-lyn who keeps insisting that she's twice my size.. do u really believe her??

mo ^^

Gg.. i took so many pictures with her, and this is the only one she liked.
maybe because i look stupid? ==' jk =D

darling joanne. how come her teeth so even wan???
haihz.. i'm still hving my vampirish teeth.. grrr..



wan 'observe'. still can't help laughing. sry xD



wtf. i look like some mean hot librarian


in case you were wondering, this was us spending 3 hour break in the media hub. 'studying'





random poser picture of me.
just because.
it's ok. i KNOW you love me=P

awww.. i turn myself on. >.<
WARNING:
NEXT PICTURE MAY CAUSE SEVERE PUKING/SUDDEN HEART ATTACK

pretty mah?

and on that day, i realised that there are actually still some decent people in this super corrupted country. after months of being conned by useless arseholes who wanted charge 20 bucks for a 15 mins distance plus blardy rude (stfu!) taxi drivers, i met this guy:-

he's a buddhist indian, who's retired, has 2 christian sons who's a lecturer and a pilot. and his eldest son just got married recently. and his wife died when his eldest son was 12. poor thing =( and he works as a taxi driver just to pass the time =/. he earns about 2k a month driving taxi for half a day. haha.. anything else i left out?

anyway, it was a stroke of luck as he didn't charge me much. heck, we even talked abt how spoilt kids are nowadays! haha.. he even took out his family photo album to show me his sons. he's like super proud of them. and honestly, who wouldn't be? lecturer with phd and pilot for mas wor.. each also earn abt 10k.. sure proud right? he kept telling me that i should concentrate on my studies. and its a good thing i don't study business. haha. apparently he prejudiced towards business degree holders. dunno why >.<

owh, i'm getting sidetracked. anywayz, my point is that its just nice to know that there are still decent people amidst all this corruption who still helps just because its the right thing to do. honestly, the concept of 'morally right' has all but vanished. i mean, look at the increase in abduction cases alone! what kind of mentally retarded people are these?? i hope they burn in hell. seriously.

and in case you were wondering why i got so hyped about this issue suddenly, its because i just found out that a friend of mine was robbed, almost had her brother kidnapped and hurt, just because the f*ckers had nothing better to do on a tuesday AFTERNOON - in broad daylight. thank god a neighbour happened to pass by. i would hate to know what might've happened. what is the world coming to??? some material possessions were taken but what matters is that the poor girl is still in shock. and answer honestly, wouldn't you be? if some maniac wielding a parang broke into your house while you were alone (or in her case with her 5 year old brother)? honestly, wht kind of psyco are you to inflict this kind of damage to one's soul?? arrgggh..

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

happiness is all a state of mind

i'm feeling a little depressed and energy-less (is there such word?). and its maddening to not be able to think straight. god knows how much i was struggling in class to pay attention and actually absorb something from my tutorials... arrgghh..

just came back from pyramid where someone was sweet enough to tolerate my undecisiveness in shopping for my sis's bday. walked like 2 hours before finally settling for something. and i was so sorely tempted to buy this cute music thingy.. and some ppl apparently gets high from the pink panther song. i'm sorry it took so long, and i'm sorry i couldn't be better company. i don't know what is wrong with me today. but you know wht? thanks =) i know you really did regret allowing me to go pyramid. and i knew you wanted to go home to sleep. so i want you to know that i really really appreciate it.. drink more water, and get more sleep. get well soon. don't be like me, 1 week already and i'm still hving headaches -.- . maybe i need more ice creams? or donuts work too... =P

i feel like i wanna die and go to heaven...
to soar in the open sky with the wind in my hair...
to have the pounding in my head disappear...
to feel weightless and free.

i'm not happy and that is not ok. especially when i don't know why i'm sad.


Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour a day to drain the fluids from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation. And every afternoon when the man in the bed next to the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed would live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the outside world. The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake, the man had said. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Lovers walked arm in arm amid flowers of every color of the rainbow. Grand old trees graced the landscape, and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance. As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man could not hear the band, he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words. Unexpectedly, an alien thought entered his head: Why should hehave all the pleasure of seeing everything while I never get to see anything? It didn't seem fair. As the thought fermented, the man felt ashamed at first. But as the days passed and he missed seeing more sights, his envy eroded into resentment and soon turned him sour. He began to brood and found himself unable to sleep. He should be by that window - and that thought now controlled his life.

Late one night, as he lay staring at the ceiling, the man by the window began to cough. He was choking on the fluid in his lungs. The other man watched in the dimly lit room as the struggling man by the window groped for the button to call for help. Listening from across the room, he never moved, never pushed his own button which would have brought the nurse running. In less than five minutes, the coughing and choking stopped, along with the sound of breathing. Now, there was only silence--deathly silence.

The following morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths. When she found the lifeless body of the man by the window, she was saddened and called the hospital attendant to take it away--no words, no fuss. As soon as it seemed appropriate, the man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look. Finally, he would have the joy of seeing it all himself. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed. It faced a blank wall.


Moral of the story:
The pursuit of happiness is a matter of choice...it is a positive attitude we consciously choose to express. It is not a gift that gets delivered to our doorstep each morning, nor does it come through the window. And I am certain that our circumstances are just a small part of what makes us joyful. If we wait for them to get just right, we will never find lasting joy.


The pursuit of happiness is an inward journey. Our minds are like programs, awaiting the code that will determine behaviors; like bank vaults awaiting our deposits. If we regularly deposit positive, encouraging, and uplifting thoughts, if we continue to bite our lips just before we begin to grumble and complain, if we shoot down that seemingly harmless negative thought as it germinates, we will find that there is much to rejoice about.

i'm trying my best. but i keep failing. maybe i'll be better tomorrow...
after all, a girl's got to have something to take her through the next day right?
crap.. its 4.09pm. i'm late for my appointment in heaven.



~sometimes its easier to just not know

Monday, March 24, 2008

its 4.25am on a monday morning

friday was.. hmm.. hectic? the stupid fever came back and was trying valiantly to make my head spin with every breath i took. thankfully, it didn't succeed, though i hade to go vomit a few times to clear my head. and honestly, lunch was a disaster. i was positively nauseous with the idea of eating anything. much less the wantan mee the girls were having. honestly, it tastes like.. yuck! trust me, it ain't nice =)




i'm not sure when was this.. but tht day wan said i look hot! *awww*


after class ended at 12, we went for lunch and then to the media hub cz we were supposed to be 'discussing' our Journalism presentation for monday. somehow, everyone ended up doing their own work for abt 2 hours - rushing to complete the precis draft deadline. and bothering ms.natasha's class every few minutes.. ahaha



the initial 'discussion'. i think wan downloading something.. >.<


and what we're we doing?


donkey and the course outline we were SUPPOSED to be studying..



~sherrymint and sharonnie~



sherry & dOnkey



us. discussing xP



but we finally got to work! haha.. but the idea is still shitty though..


i sincerely hope we get throught this tmr. haihz. at least once its over we can sit back and watch the others right? arrggghh! i know i should be fast asleep right now. and u guys are gonna kill me if i can't think tmr morning. haha.. but it isn't my fault!

here's the story:

i woke up at 1pm (cz some idiot couldn't sleep last night and decided to call me until 6am). headed downstairs for lunch - my mum's famous mee soup! and was watching tv when jon called. went something like this:

jon: sherry, jon here.
me: i noe. whats up?
jon: oh good, you're awake
wtf.. ?
jon: me and joewin going starbucks to study. i think adr n ramesh joining also. wanna come?
wtf.. study?? jon??? joe win??? am i in an alternate reality or something??!
me: wait i ask my mum. but i grounded la.. dunno can or not.. wait ya..

*go kitchen*

me: mi, jon asking if i can teman them go study in starbucks. adrian joining also...
mum: sure, what time you coming back?
me: er.. 10 like dat kua..
mum: ok. have fun
ok.. seriously, wtf??? i wan go mamak for 30 mins also cannot, and she's letting me go dunno which starbucks to chill for 6 hours??

*so jon pick me up*

me: which starbucks we going? lets go the 3 storeys wan.. i never go before...
jon: there got nothing wan la.. we going our regular starbucks lor..
me: huh? which?
jon: genting
me: ...

when we reached there, it started raining, and i had this horrid image of me holding an ice blended drink freezing in the cold air and turning into a block of ice. cz u know wht? since these 'nerds' didn't bother to tell me we were going genting, obviously i didn't bring a jacket rite? jeez..

but adrian was sweet =) he lent me his.. haha.. super big but very comfy. anyway, chilled there abit. and i managed to take jon's laptop, cz he keep getting distracted. ahaha. so yeah, took our fav place beside the window, where u can see the mist coming in.. damn nice wei.. then abt 7 went back down to kl makan. i actually hv some pics from jon's fone. but i'm not sure when i'm gonna get it. haihz.

as we reach subang, adrian ask if wan go starbucks agn because he had cravings for a cappucino. omg.. just now coffee not enough meh? and u know wht? he bought another latte for me. and THAT is why i can't sleep.

wow.. if you're reading this, it means u actually bothered to read my grandma story. awww.. i'm so proud of you!

okay. it's 4.30am. i shall go sleep now. haha. wish me luck tmr!





Saturday, March 22, 2008

do be do be do ~~~

crystal ball crystal ball, may i be so bold
as to ask, what my future holds?

what lies ahead you wanna know?
a stressful week with insanity streaks
as you race to finish in time
what you shouldn't have put behind


presentations, journals, precis and essays predominating on my mind. bugging me without mercy, causing sleep deprivation, breakouts and stress. this is gonna be an ugly week =(

the feeling of drums pounding unceasingly has stopped. thankfully. it's unforgiving headache was indeed torturous last night as i wake up every few hours sweating. how i managed to get through the night is a miracle. strangely, i have always been well acquainted with mr.fever. i mean, i get them like once every 2-3 months on average in form5. minor ones that is. i'd wake up feeling hot and bothered. then go to class and feel miserable. go home, back to bed and i'll be fine in the evening. its already like a routine. jess used to say how other girls get pms, and i'll get fever. yeah, that was me. i'm unique =)

anyway, good news people, i think i'm ok now. maybe a little hungry cz i didn't eat much but otherwise fine - until i start panicking about my assignments anyway. but by then, i think i'll have some other people sharing the pain with me =D

i heard there's this new movie with both jackie chan and jet li starring in it. too bad i'm a fan of neither =P i'd just stick to chow sing chee. action packed but with funnies kicking in. guarenteed to help you lose weight by exercising your tummy muscles. ha! i bet thats's why i gain weight slowly. hehe.. so u know what girl? don't worry about your figure. you look totally awesome and get this: YOU.ARE.NOT.FAT! so stop complaining and start laughing your ass off ^^ it works apparently and it doesn't cost a thing.



=)

have a great weekend everyone!






oh, before i forget,
what is a journalist?
(and i don't mean the definition - cz i DO have a dictionary)
if you have the answers, please please PLEASE tell me!
thank you C=

Thursday, March 20, 2008

being sick isn't so bad after all~

guess what? i got home yesterday feeling absolutely exhausted and was complaining to everyone i met about it. haha.. i think i complained a lot while i was in class too. sry yeah.. for those who had to put up with me.. and then my mum came home and i complained to her non stop. you know, something like "i don't know why i'm so tired, i don't feel like eating =(" throughout the show - and yes, i can be an absolute nuisance when i want to. eventually she got a little fed up and she came to check on me. and she was like

mum: "oh, you have fever"
me: "see, told you i not feeling well d.."
mum: "you never said that. u just said you were tired."
me: "same thing la right? how often i complain to you that i'm tired la?"
mum: "whenever i ask you to clean your room!" =(
y she so bad to me? i'm sick right??! no sympathy for your daughter wan meh??
me: ...
mum: just go sleep. you'll feel better later.
me:
i can't sleep


10 mins later..... *snore..* lolx. i amaze myself sometimes.

and then i woke up like 5 hours later. and guess what.
my mum bought my fav chocolate ice cream from baskin robbins.
1 whole tub! just for me!

awww.. i have the best mum ever!!! ♥


haha.. she trully knows me best. and i did get better - after the ice cream anyway. i guess there's something about eating half a tub of ice cream that comforts me. especially when it's chocolate. seriously, she's the best =) i ♥ her~~

so basically i had ice-cream as my dinner. and then i went back to sleep. was comatose for another 12 hours and woke up to the smell of KFC wafting in.. woot~ my mum really does know how to treat a sick patient. i guess she knew i'd just feel more miserable if i had to stay in bed and force myself to swallow some horrible tasting med. and probably puke in the process just to get some sympathy from her harsh unforgiving face when i complain. and then bug her for the rest of the day.

well, you know what they say:


mainly chocolates and ice cream. oh, and if you're in a mall, shopping is considered one too =P

actually i think it was that last part which made her buy greasy fried chicken (oops, i hope chernlin doesn't read this) and soggy mashed potato for me. hmm... she kinda dissappeared when i got distracted by the food. and i just found out that she was meeting her friends for a drink. lol. but i have to admit, she's smart. seriously. ice cream and non-hospital food is the only way to shut me up when i'm sick. haha.. and i do feel better. thank goodness my grandmother isn't around. though i love her too, she'd force feed me some kind of yucky herbal drink. i know it! but then again, she does give me chocolates.. so i guess it evens out anyway.. =)

this is really random, but just suddenly i see all these people on my msn that i don't really talk to. i just suddenly i found myself wishing you guys were here. *sigh*

i really really really miss:
  • ade and her psychotic sense of humor.
  • the lame_queen and her lame jokes
  • the birdie and her maniac laugh
  • deedy and her shopping updates
  • tiengwei and my mirrors in my holiday resort
  • jun and his stupid jokes
  • jess and her 'just-because-i-miss-you house parties'
  • kim and her blurness
  • qianling for her amazing sense of direction
  • brian for his patience when i give lousy directions

do you know how alone i feel without you guys bugging me? never thought i'd miss your nudges online bugging me to go out. i guess you really only appreciate stuff when they're gone. arrrgggh crap~ now i'm starting to emo. u see lah! if i really emo its all your fault! hmph..

* i haven't heard from yeanling and lisa for so long now. and both also in melb. i wonder if you guys are ok.. or have you both found ang moh boyfriends and forgotten me? how can you forget about me rotting here???!! don't leave me out! find a hottie for me too! xP




drowning out the fever with pepsi~

lolx. and i keep wondering why i'm sick.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

random: maple syrup

gay fella next to me. i just feel os bad for him. it's like he can never be happy. i'm trying so hard to comfort him but he is beyond help. for one, he likes PINK. secondly, he likes PINK, boots. and maple syrup ( the author of the blog. happy?? ) , bbq sauce, and travelling from egypt to suabng like super jumper. i'm not hayden christensen. the author, ol minty says that she is facing some teenage problems. i have been trying to concolse and counsel her but it does not seem to be working. she still goes out late, eat bad food, buy shitty clothes and treats me like shit. seeing that i ahve the liberty of fulfilling this post with my woundrous ideas, i want to take the opportunity to say

ps. i don't know this fella. i think he escaped from an asylum. me so kelian rite? =( see how nice i am, letting him vent his frustrations on his sexual orientation. so banyak masalah. lucky here got nice big window in case he wants to jump out. floor also concrete. easy to clean. lucky cleaners =)

ps ( 2 ). i'm back. i know you all hate me but i don't care. conclusively, this chance given to me by minty has proved how badly she wants me to announce my erm... er.... you know la. so, with this i would like to say go homos. and sorry to cleaners. use toshiba vacuum cleaner and buatan malaysia brrom. our economy needs it. badly.

pps. i swear i don't know him!

and yet i'm writing on her blog while she's beside me. righttt.....

cz i scared he extort more lollipop. i no money, poor poor wan =( donation to the poor?

chupa chips only 40 cents. correction 59 cents.

59 cents!!!!!!!!!!

yes. got a problem?

u think money grow on trees isit??

nvm. i is dont know what to say. mentos mints. the worst sweets ever.

whatever..

fine..

** i really don't knw him =='

i really don't know , oops, don't like her.

too bad, your lost. *blek*

i want chocolates.
sorry sammy.
i know supposed to teman u tdy. nt my fault gt the stupid orientation.
next time k?
* he knows i got no money but still wan lollipop. so bad rite? =P
bully girl..

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

random: do i really type that slow?


college life has been pretty sedate these past 2 weeks. a few assignments, but still plenty of time to chill, relax and generally do stuff which makes you spend money because you're bored. and if you're wondering why am i blogging at this unearthly hour (for NORMAL people) instead of sleeping, or at least doing my assignment, its because some-way-too-free people insisted i update. and apparently the previous post don't count because: "no pictures lah.. where can??" =='

so here. nah pictures. ==' happy??


with sharon. toilet picture. a classic location =P

nazihah & me. PR1 Tutorial class.


went for lunch in damansara jaya today. someplace next to atria. the place reminded me of peppercorn at ss15, almost same atmosphere. but the food was okay only. i think i still prefer peppercorn, but yeah, that may be just me. i miss those days. its been ages since i went back =(

at the back:sue may, ju enn, sharon

and of course must have my picture...


and of course not forgetting the driver himself =)


can't go out wif jemmy they all tmr. haihz. scared to ask daddy. =( sorry ya.. ffk again. maybe next week we see how kayz? sorry ya..


lastly i need to apologize to someone and the others cause someone there complained that i did not greet him on msn and i always ffk everytime he ajak me go out. sometimes it's just the matter of absolutely bad timing on my part and for that i'm really sorry. its not like i purposely ditch you k? plus you're never free whenever i'm free.. we just have different timatables la. i promise i'll make time for you. =) just be patient.






- my typing skill damn cacat wei.. i type 273 characters per minute. lol -



Monday, March 17, 2008

random: i need my chocolate brownies =(

i just got home and i've already commited the crime of the century. and guess what i did?
.....
.....
.....
i accidently logged into my brothers online game website
(cz the browser part saves all the past visits and i clicked the wrong one)

and then my dad being sick and home early today thought that this is what i do everyday. and i got scolded and lectured. "you should concentrate on your studies and not play these stupid games. it's bad enough that you keep going out and spending money like water bla bla bla..." seriously now, wtf? can u like at least give me credit for not being that desperate that i only depend on the virtual world for a social life like so many other youngsters nowadays? wasn't i like already NOT going out? i've cut down like almost 70% and he's still not happy? what did he expect me to be? a freakin nun????!! arrgh.. i'm bloody pissed right now. whats his problem? sick go sleep la! stop getting on my case! sheesh!
stupid monday. there's a reason why most people hates it you know. for one thing, it signals the end of your weekends. and for another, it signals the next 5 days of the week where i have to drag my stupid arse off the bed at dawn. and then there's all the work i probably will soon be stressing on. most notably my groups P.Journalism's presentation coming up next monday. fabulous? NOT!
and for a 1 hour period today, i wasn't happy. shall no elaborate. just that will some people just get off my case? i hate being analyzed for every single thing i do. so stop making assumptions and get on with your own life kayz?

i'm sick of being compared to mr.this-that's smart AND hardworking son and/or daughter. gee, i very stupid isit? can't i even have my own life? must i really conform into that particular group where they have absolutely NO fashion sense, NO social life and NO opinions of their own other than what this or that lecturer said? because honestly, that's what they are and i do feel insulted that you actually want me to be like that. is it compulsary to get straight A's but have absolutely no street smarts? i tell you, these are the people who are perpetually getting conned out of their money like you keep reading in the news. honestly! =='

seems like you aren't happy with me.
but you're my daddy.
so what do i do?


do i...
a) dressed like a friggin arab - covered from head to toe - just to satisfy your paternal instincts of being afraid of me seeking out potential mates instead of studying?
b) nerd it out every night, resisting the urge to go out and actualy talk to people of the same species instead of arguing with theological questions?
c) become lonely and depressed because i let you dictate my life and eventually commit suicide?
d) all of the above

or do i...
e)heck care what you say and do what i think is best for myself - even though it means you cutting off my allowance and unfairly grounding me?

tough choice? not at all.
because you know what daddy dear? it's my life.
i love you but it isn't your life. i'll listen, but it's still my choice. and hey, do me a favor? can't you just love me for the way i am? not what i can or should be. it's part of what makes me, uniquely me. i'm happy with me. shouldn't you feel the same?


get well soon daddy.
you're such a grouchy ol' bear when you're sick =='
i beh tahan you nagging at me. so be a good boy man and take your medicines k?
♥ i luv ya daddy ♥
*but no huggies cz u made me mad*

no classes tmr. but with sick daddy home, i'm not sure it's a good thing.
*i just hope he doesn't ask me to help him hunt for the latest transformer/hotwheels/gundam toys. else i'm the one who's gonna be sick.


can't nap. gotta help cook dinner cz the new maid is hopeless =/ *sigh*
~its simply another monday madness~

Sunday, March 16, 2008

gaining control

arrggh! i think i've over indulged in ice-cream again! =( despite totally losing weight again (i'm back to my 40kg), i'm still gaining fats! i think i'd better cut down on unhealthy calories - especially when i'm out. *sigh* so please don't tempt me. you know how easily i give in to temptation - especially where good food and great bargains are concerned. =/ i'm hopeless. so don't you DARE wave that snickers at me! especially you matt! ==' i swear i'm not going out with you for a month! ish..

colbie caillet was in Laundry last friday. and if jun were here, i'd be there since Curve is like his 2nd home. so yes, for now i hate you jun!!! =( all my kaki hilang d.. gone dunno where. sad case la.. and Mr.Samuel Chew supposed to help me get her autograph too. but i bet he did not even remember me. am i right mr.chew? =/ but since he's such a gentleman, i'm sure that he will feel remorse at this terrible crime and give me his =D hehe... right?

ini aku mau... =(

"i've got the power"


† SeraphSam's tempo has reached critical level, feel the beat it takes me higher says (9:41 PM):
i've got the power >
Sherrymint says (9:43 PM):
lame
† SeraphSam's tempo has reached critical level, feel the beat it takes me higher says (9:43 PM):
creative
† SeraphSam's tempo has reached critical level, feel the beat it takes me higher says (9:43 PM):
hehe

he's lame right???? of course i'm right. i'm always right =P *ss~*


† SeraphSam's tempo has reached critical level, feel the beat it takes me higher says (9:54 PM):
how can u prove that ur innocent? xD
† SeraphSam's tempo has reached critical level, feel the beat it takes me higher says (9:54 PM):
=)
† SeraphSam's tempo has reached critical level, feel the beat it takes me higher says (9:54 PM):
if u can i'll say ur innocent
† SeraphSam's tempo has reached critical level, feel the beat it takes me higher says (9:54 PM):
xD
Sherrymint says (9:54 PM):
err
Sherrymint says (9:54 PM):
nothing is ever my fault
Sherrymint says (9:54 PM):
plus i good good girl
Sherrymint says (9:54 PM):
very sweet n nice
Sherrymint says (9:56 PM):
not at all annoying or sarcastic
Sherrymint says (9:56 PM):
whoever told u tht was lying

i'm innocent right? ^^

(yes, i jz had my fav mocha frapp but it had nothing to do with this. i really am innocent!)

btw, this was before his english got 'powderfull', where the conversation deteriorated into lols and him trying to make me feel jealous. oo~ and apparently he's the innocent one.. riiiitteee....

so baaaaaaaadd..

guess what people? kawan baik ku, ms.adeline ng has gotten her credit card - finally. so, adelaide mall beware. WARNING: serial shopper on the loose! i wonder which unfortunate has to pay the bill... lol.. i miss you la. no more ppl to gossip with. haihz. and dear, 3 more months till you're 18, so be patient k? don't go around terrorizing the boutique owners to reserve the stuff for you till you're 18 =D

and finally, just wanna wish my darling pet sis amy tan a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY! you're finally 21 and legal to enter casino after this. haha. so no more worries, no one's gonna kick you out agian like last time >.<>

ps. btw, mummy said no more late night outings. cz i need to study. so if i don't go out with you guys, don't be angry k? it isn't my fault =/

Thursday, March 13, 2008

me being distracted (again)


ahh.. heck. it's no use. i can't concentrate no matter how hard i tried *sigh* so hello again, this is me being distracted (again) =P

oh btw, watched 10,000BC last tuesday. i would definitely recommend it - that is if you haven't watched it already by now. it's about this hunter named D'leh who journeyed through snow, walked across mountains, through a jungle, crossed a blazing huge desert, followed the moon to the place of 'the gods' (which looked a lot like egypt). so if this was modern day, i would say that he walked from some snowy place, maybe north korea or something, towards malaysia (tropical rainforests), across the sahara desert and into egypt. gee, i wonder how long he walked? @_@ and all that just to find his lady love, Evolet (who was kidnapped), which admittedly is darned pretty! how come middle-stone-age girl also can be so pretty wan??? free mud-pack isit? =='

and hey, if you like animals, you'll definitely like this show. i mean they have a sabertooth tiger or 'tooth spear' as they call it as well as some ostrich-like-man-eating-carnivore which apparently is some sort of prehistoric bird called Phororhacos. not to forget the big wolly mammoth or 'mannak' or 'big hairy elephant' as my sis calls it.

oh, have i mentioned about the strange names and characters? for one there's 'Tic Tic' - which by the way is NOT a bird like in George of the Jungle - but instead is the name of a wiseman who is pretty darn cool for his age. i mean, he walked ofr miles and survived near death experience like twice? but of course he died in the end anyway. after all, someone has to die in a movie right?

so, in summary, D'leh found some desert tribesman and lead like a few thousand people with grass skirts and spears towards the 'land of the gods' by following the moonlight. then the usual heroic stuff - lead a revolt, killed the leaders etc.. oh, and you know what? evolet was shot in the back, died and was resurrected - following some ancient prophecy by the old mother (the woman with popcorn in her hair). so they life happily ever after . *sobs* i just love happy endings, don't you? =)


ps. the so called 'god' looks retarded. at least to me. sorry tim barlow, no offense to you =)

pps. and i would suggest that you do not watch this movie with hysterical-too-much-sense-of-humor guys. extremely embarrassing. trust me. i've been there =P







Camilla Belle aka Evolet.









aih.. 'uni life' ain't fun.
for one thing, i still get nagged every morning (my fault for not waking up).
and for another, it requires lots of discipline =(
arrgghh..


my homework


notice me still procrastinating?
haihz.

me being distracted..

its 12pm on a thursday afternoon and i'm stuck in the media hub. what am i doing here??? i should have been at home sleeping sionce 2 hours ago =( luckily got jo lyn teman me.. and we finally got some work done. after like 2 weeks of procrastinations. hmm.. maybe because this time we don't have some annoying people bugging us?? ('someone' referring to someone who wouldn't shut up in ccs class - not that i'm complaining much, since it made the class not-so-dead) oh btw, i'm probably gonna fail my ccs course seeing as i'm the 'leader' between 2 nutcases and one blur case. me so kelian!!! =P

assignments are piling up, and i'm not doing a single thing to deplete it - ither than this of course... i've been extremely exhausted these past few days. and only god knows why. i mean its not like i've been out partying all night like last year right? so why do i feel so tired? and you know what? i keep getting these really nice dreams for the past few nights - which not only is causing me valuable sleep time - but also making me late for class. i dun wanna wake up in the morning!!! i miss my morning to noon naps =( it's like i'm having this really really nice dream and then one of my alarms will ring (yes, i have more than one. i'm THAT difficult) then suddenly my fabulous dream will just cut off. and i won't know the ending. wtf? damn potong le.. so you know what guys? don't blame me if i'm grumpy in the morning..



i'm turning into a panda =(

an ugly fugly panda with big dark eye bags @_@

me want ice-cream. haihz.



celebrating Qiki's b'day tmr in Redbox, pyramid after class. don't worry, i doubt that i'll get high.. after all there will be like dunno-how-many people going. dunno being a lot.

so yeah.. i'm still being a good girl ^^

*bangga*


i'm trying to 'evaluate the social and cultural implicatons of the internet'. meaning trying to decide if it brings more benefits or harm. jo lyn, thanks for the mind-numbing text wei.. falling asleep now =='


okay, why am i blogging instead of finishing my work?
was i distracted by the maniac laughter behind me? perhaps.

okay, back to work. and you reading this.. are you really that free?

Sunday, March 9, 2008

time to say goodbye?

BN has officially lost 5 states. wow.. the people must have been really unhappy with BN. though apparently they lost perak by a hairline with a difference of only 3 seats. that must've got on their nerves. they have practically lost almost all of west malaysia to the opposition as well as failed to get 2/3rds of the parliamentary seat although they did win more than half of the 222 contested seats. but even so, it is a major defeat especially for the party who was brimming with confidence in the last election. i bet they're absolutely seething inside from the unexpected losses.


the atmosphere is tense with the promises of changes that hung in the air. with violence rampaging unchecked more and more often, we should all tread with more caution for the next few weeks. after all, there are those who don't like changes - and are willing to reinforce their views the primate way and acting like a total neanderthal. so, not to say of course that you shouldn't go out, but maybe it will be wiser to stay home (unless your home happens to be where the mob is going through..) for the next few days till all this drama settles down. plus, it'll save you loads of money in addition to leading a healthier lifestyle! i mean, think of all the high-cholesterol food you consume whenever we eat out. and yes, this includes me too. watch me being a good girl! =P




btw adeline wong aka psychotic monkey, i saw you in the Star today! lol.. something about SPCA? i was just browsing through when i saw you.. and i was like "this girl looked so familiar" then i looked again... and i'm pretty sure its you. after all, how many people actually have that 'i-am-a-psychotic-monkey-who-loves-bullying-people' aura? haha..

it's you right? you have that "which-poor-innocent-kid-are-you-giving-me-to-corrupt-look" on your face.. =P miss you dear. i'd hug you if it didn't mean going near you. haha. jk.


its sunday and i have yet to start on my homework. gee, i really should stop procrastinating and get on with it. cz i really do mean to study this year. honest!

PRU-12

its 3.30am. and the result for subang is not out.
wtf.
subang got so many people meh?
why take so long to count the votes??
now like super suspense because first time in history BN lost penang.
and possibly kedah. and definitely kelantan (no surprise there).
lol.. i heard they're letting out firecrackers in penang.
and sharizat lost. bye bye~
and sammy vellu? not even a shadow in sight...
i know i don't seem like the patriotic type. and i'm not. politics are just a way to stress people out. and make them look 20 years older. whatever.
not that i really care either. because all i want to know is:

subang how???

who won???
omg.. i really wanna know now T_T


btw, my mum is offiially the hottest lady from her branch. thanks to her stylist. which happens to be me. =D
this is totally random, but... i feel like eating dim sum now. i don't know why. and at the rate i'm eating now, i've gotta go on diet soon, else i'll turn obese. then bulimic. then aneroxic. then suicidal. so stop tempting me!!!



btw, kim, you rock girl! and kudos to wing for hosting one of the best parties of the year! (so far anyway) haha. anyways,
HAPPY SUPER 19TH BIRTHDAY
MS.KIMBERLY KHOO

may all your dreams come true...
and that you manage to wash all that cream off your hair.. lol.
mwah babe~


ps. btw, i beat my parents home by 7 minutes. talk about a close call!




oh.. and i already watched step up 2. i give it a 4/5. cz the dance moves were awesome, but sadly i think the characters were a bit... stiff. but anyway, great movie to catch - if you haven't already. and definitely buying the dvd when it comes out. and thanks sam for temaning me =) i'm sorry i overslept. and for being totally blur. and my temporary obsession with that straighthaired model. lol. but it think she's really pretty. and yes, i'm still straight. though for that time i did consider turning bi =P


Friday, March 7, 2008

what am i doing here?

first week of college is.. extremely tiring even though i didn't do much. haha. maybe its because i have yet to get my sleeping time back on track but i am extremely sleep deprived - simply because i just can't sleep! insomnia? perhaps..

went parade the other day with the girls. supposed to go ss15. but too lazy. lol. ate at secret recipe. had my fav brownie walnut! =) yummy! then went to shop a little. if i'm not wrong, each of us bought a shirt. lol. spent like what? 2 hours in FOS. haha. happy happy me =)




on the plus side, i'm glad i have a very outgoing class. talking to them is so much easier compared to last year (no offense to you guys...) but i think i might have to work on my presentation skills. these people are like really good at talking. lol


elections are coming soon and frankly, i think its over rated. i mean, all the MP's are backstabing each other, calling each other names and all that. and everyone is so hyped up about it. i mean, i even saw a few fanatics waving the flags and yelling goodness-knows-what at other drivers. and i saw one almost got knocked down cz he was so busy trying to promote to the motorcyclist that he ignored the cars. kena horn like dunno how many times also. dumb right?

plus all the posters are making this country so ugly! i hope after the elections someone will come and clean it all up. i mean i remembered seeing some posters still up after 2 years after the last election. super ugly. i'll be glad that its over. what can i say? its a total riot, especially when violence seems to be the rage these days.

its just the first week, and i'm already behind on my assignments. gee~ i better start discipline-ing myself.. but all i can think about is essays essays essays. great. btw, i'm already having panda eyes =( plus me being fair, its freaking obvious. arrrgghh!
gonna watch step up 2 with sam and tieng wei tmr noon after breakfast with adrian. (not tht i actually asked t.wei yet..) lol.





-pink boots and pink dresses-
-just nice for you-
-blek-