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Monday, November 3, 2008

The Little Things

A smile, a nod, a wave
A call, an e-mail, a video
A card and a short letter
A small pressed rose...

"We may not be the first on your mind, nor are we always there for you.
But rest assured, we've got your back

I got your mail. It feels good to be reminded that sometimes, its the little things in life that matters. Thank you for reminding me of that today. Hope you're doing well there as well. I heart you guys, really.

I'll update this time. Promise. LOL


A Little Advice On Life From Kids:-

"Never trust a dog to watch your food." Patrick, age 10

"When your dad is mad and asks you, "Do I look stupid? don't answer." Hannah, 9

"Never tell your mom her diet's not working." Michael, 14

"Stay away from prunes." Randy, 9

"Never pee on an electric fence." Robert, 13

"Don't squat with your spurs on." Noronha, 13

"Don't pull dad's finger when he tells you to." Emily, 10

"When your mom is mad at your dad, don't let her brush your hair." Taylia,11

"Never allow your three-year old brother in the same room as your school assignment." Traci, 14

"Don't sneeze in front of mum when you're eating crackers." Mitchell,12

"Puppies still have bad breath even after eating a Tic-Tac." Andrew, 9

"Never hold a dust buster and a cat at the same time." Kyoyo, 9

"You can't hide a piece of broccoli in a glass of milk." Armir, 9

"Don't wear polka-dot underwear under white shorts." Kellie, 11

"If you want a kitten, start out by asking for a horse." Naomi, 12

"Felt markers are not good to use as lipstick." Lauren, 9

"Don't pick on your sister when she's holding a baseball bat." Joel,10

"When you get a bad grade in school, show it to your mom when she's on the phone." Alyesha, 13

"Never try to baptize a cat." Eileen, 8

-random email-

Here's an advice of my own:-

"Never ever watch Child's Play alone at 2am
when you're brother happens to be sleepwalking."

Don't you simply miss those days? Of games, friends, fights, siblings.. Treasure your memories. Sometimes, they're all you need to keep you real.

have a good day everyone =)

p.s: McD fusion is the bomb! lol. thanks for the call and e-mail. Appreciate it loads.
p.p.s: Thanks Zoe and Michelle for the awesome overnight. *hugs*

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Hypocriticism - Your Call.

Isn't it funny:-

When the other fellow takes too long to do something, he's slow;
When I take too long to do something, I'm thorough.

When the other fellow doesn't do it, he's lazy;
When I don't do it, I'm busy.

When the other fellow does it without being told, he's overstepping his bounds;
When I go ahead and do it without being told, thats initiative.

When the other fellow states his opinion strongly, he's bullheaded;
When I state my opinion strongly, I'm firm.

When the other fellow overlooks a few rules of etiquette, he's rude;
When I skip a few rules of etiquette, I'm doing my own thing.

- Charles McHarry, New York Daily News -

You're absolutely right of course, I am a hypocrite - not that I've actually denied that fact - but before you launch into your somewhat rehearsed speech with that absolutely annoying smug look on your face, do consider this: What about you yourself? Are you really that guilt free from hypocriticism to accuse me of something true, which makes me totally innocent btw?

I neither have the time nor tolerance to listen to your bullshit. Keep it short and to the point next time. Please, for your own sake, go dunk you head in the pool before trying to start a bitch fight with me. Perhaps you'll at least regain some measure of clarity before you humiliate yourself in public once again.

Quote from Ms.EpicFail: "Hypocrites like you are miserable souls seeking attention"

Hah. In your face! Fyi, I already have all the attention I need at the moment unlike you. Obviously hypocrites like me already have the confidence needed to be hypocritical as well as admit my faults at the same time. So doesn't that make you the one with the pathetic soul?

Hypocrite trying to teach me about hypocriticism, creating unneccessary drama just so you'd be the QueenBee. Dream on babe, with that attitude and mentality, you're no match for me yet. Go meditate a few years or something. Ugh. What a waste of time.

Lastly, I need to apologize to someone and the others, because apparently that someone complained that I did not greet him on msn when I'm online (wtf?!) and I did not link him in my blog. Not to mention that someone specifically highlighting the fact that I've ditched him for a few times in the past month despite me warning way beforehand that I'm unable to confirm my attendance. Okay, I shall stop here before I start reconsidering what the hell @#$%& am I apologising for.

ps. Before I forget, thanks for the invite Andrew!! You're the absolute bestest! (ignore the grammatical error). Lol.

Monday, October 27, 2008


Okay. I suppose its about time I lay off the emo posts - at least for the time being.

So how has everyone been doing? Very sorry about the sudden retreat from certain events. And I'm sorry for missing Cal and Su Wen's b'day party. It was too difficult for me. Happy Belated Birthday anyways. If you're free, call me out and we'll get some ice-cream, on me =)

Before you launch into a full blown lecture about how I should take care of myself (as quite a few have done on MSN), let me just tell you this: CHILL.

I am NOT sick - at least no more than usual
I am NOT depressed - most of the time anyways
I am NOT gonna remain emo for the rest of my life

Thanks for the concern though. I can usually retain self control, enough to get through the day. Ignore the occasional cracks and im sorry if I made anyone feel uncomfortable. Besides, I'm supposed to be fine most of the time, not that it really matters since I look fine, but then again, if I can really look fine, I guess that means I really am fine? And seeing that this covers 'most of the times' why am I even discussing this? ugh.

So anyways, Brian called earlier cz he was bored - thats his official excuse, but its obviously more to check up on me. Being typical idiots, it went something like this:-

Brian: hello
Me: hey

Brian: How are you?
Me: Emo

Brian: Me too
Me: What for?

Brian: no reason
Me: wtf?

Brian: Yarh. Hear your voice then I suddenly emo. Miracle ler..
Me: wtf??

Brian: So.... wanna bet who's emo-ier?
Me: WTF???

Brian: I'm serious ler! I'm so emo now I could eat 3 packets of Doritos
Me: hmph. Eat la. I don't care. I'm the original emo-ier. Kenot copy.

Brian: Eh! Emo not you invent wan le. No copyright also
Me: I dun care (*sulks*)

Brian: Hah! I knew I was emo-ier than you
Me: wtf? where got??? you don't sound emo also. stop lying you liar! (sorry la. brain was not exactly working. can't think of more creative names to call him. *sigh*)

Brian: Me no lie. Me sitting down larh..
Me: ........

Brian: So.. how are you?
Me: I'm fine lah!

Brian: HAH! i knew you were lying! See! I told you I'm more emo
Me: wtf wtf wtf -____- I'm more emooooooo!

Brian: No larh. Dun lie. You are annoyed, not emo. You think I stupid arh?
Me: .........

We argued like that for almost 20 minutes. Geez. Now I feel like such a retard.

ps. Its amazing how much heartache you can get when someone dear disappoints. Being the one elder, I supposed its my fault. Again. But how much can one person really tolerate? And for how long? I feel apprehension and tension. Unwilling to forget, will this be the end?

pps. Seeds of doubt are sprouting. I'm in trouble.

Monday, October 20, 2008

7 days

This is a very simple post just to inform you:

"Don't worry. I'm still alive."

Have a good day.

how quickly time flew
locked up in the dark
undisturbed, alone

echoes of past footsteps
reverbating in hidden paths
forever hidden in shadows

ps. MLit annotated bibliography draft due on Wednesday. why do I not care?
pps. In need of distractions. I refuse to sit home and emo. Suggestions?

Listening to : Enya - Ask the Mountains.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

In Memory, Always

I'm home.

I was there. With him. So perfectly still, so pale.

Its disconcerting, how easily life goes out. *Poof* an errant breeze, and the once roaring flame, brimming full with energy goes out. Just like that. Leaving the smoky scent of memories, hovering, clinging, leaving the faintest spark of what could have been.

The unnaturally sunny skies and the occasional breeze. That the sun would shine so brightly today, on such a day offends me for some obscure reason. But then again, you've always liked the sun haven't you? That smile, the laughter...

It was much too brief, our time.


His mum recognised me. I was shocked.

I knew he was close to his mum, and yet, it was still so very unexpected. She told me, that he'd shown her my picture, that he'd told them about me, that very night he brought me out. I could only sit there, stunned, tears falling at the memory.

I never knew.

Celine was comforting, a mother figure thats more like a friend. Now i know why he'd confided in her. Despite her tears, I could feel her watching me. Every move I made.

When I approached, it was all I could do, not to break down and cry, right there, right then. So silent, so still, so final. It isn't fair.


I went to his room. As messy as it ever was. Random clothings in a corner of the bed, a now dry towel hanging on the door knob. CD's piled in an untidy stack, assorted markers and pens literring the table. I could feel the anticipation, as if everything was awaiting the return of its owner.

A deep red envelope caught my eye. Celine saw and without hesitation, she took it out amidst the pile from the table.

"He wrote it for you," she said, passing it to me.

I opened the card, and saw the half written words. I could feel my heart hammering, demanding to be let out of its cage. I noticed he'd taken pains to write nicely. His script wasn't always that neat. He remembered when we met last year, at WR's birthday party, 3 days before Halloween.

It started then. The dam burst.


It was finally over. As I went down the stairs, I felt strangely relieved.

Sheng was there, relief flooding his face - probably when he realized I hadn't gone out and killed myself or done something stupid. He was quiet on the way back, fearing to trigger the tears. I laughed in his face.

Its easier now. No less painful, but bearable.

Everyone's walking on eggshells around me now - everyone who knew that is. I'm still not over it, but I promise I'd try to behave. Thoughts no longer running amok. I have no doubt coherency will be along soon. Thats one thing he's always liked.

After all, knowing him, he's probably laughing his ass off in heaven right now - while I'm making a fool of myself in public.

I'm keeping the card.
Thank you, Alex Soo.

Please drive carefully. I can't bear losing anyone anymore.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008


You were right.

Things are never as easy as they seem.

What am I to do now?

I need you, right now.

I miss you, so much.

Turn back time. Please.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

9am, Tuesday

oh, guess what.......

IT'S FINALLY OVERRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*jumps with joy*

... and no, it ain't the last time you caught me capering around with chocolate on my mouth and some fake boa thingy around my neck -___-" (ms.lynette fong! you have no right to be creeping up on me like that ok! wtf..) damn embarrassing ok!

and her'e my effusive and overwhelming gratitude to those i've annoyed, whined, complained, sulked, emo-ed, screams (and all the other characteristics of a mad woman at 3am in the morning) throughout this extremely traumatic period... WHICH I SURVIVED!

*tears in eyes like some Oscar award thingy wtf*

thanks for calling all the way from there despite the ungodly hour
thanks for bearing with all my stupid whims, whines and crazyness
thanks for scolding me when all i did was procrastinate till the very end
thanks for not killing me when i practically screamed you deaf yesterday

i know i owe you coffee when you come back... and i promise i shall not weasel out of this one (or at least i will try very hard not to?) you owe me chocolates anyway. =D

will be off to meet Mesha in a while. overdue posts and pictures will be up soon - right after i finish hyperventilating that is. sorry about the delay. geez, i never knew it could be so sinful to be so happy.

ok. it's time to grab a shower and look decent. ciao~

Sunday, October 12, 2008

5am, Sunday

sorry for the lack of updates.
life's been pretty hectic lately
...and NO i have not been out partying. much.

one last assignment before i collapse.
IPD is a bitch. an evil relentless torturous bitch. ugh.
(the subject. not the lecturer.)

clock is ticking

time is moving

i is dying

tired and stressed out.
i need help.

*accepting donations or sponsor for a spa trip. or my funeral.
..whichever comes first.

ps. i ain't responsible for any emotional trauma you get for seeing a dead and depressed elmo. addiction to an annoying talking puppet -of any kind- ain't good for you anyway.

pps. babe, im getting annoyed at being treated like your personal butler. or maid. or courier service. Why don't you just tell me what you want and let me arrange it instead of being sent random emails by random people (or worse! random sms-es) to arrange for places with objects i had no memory of ordering? Seems to me i've told you this before? I heart you loads babe, but you're getting on my nerves. A lot.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

black balloons

Ugh. memories come flooding back and all I could do is stand there, helplessly reliving each fateful moment. No regrets yet it hurts all the same.

Emo moments aside, my days have been jam packed (or should i say sardine packed?) with stuffs. so much that I have yet to actually start a single assignment due by next week. I foresee long nights ahead. ah yessss - i have the sight..

Seriously, its amazing how I've managed to survive this long, especially with such a procrastinating attitude towards my work. It ain't lazyness.

Don't yell at me, you don't understand.

I can't help it though. I absolutely detest that community where I actually feel isolated, and occasionally alienated. Ugh. never again am I letting myself go through all that crappy trauma, heartache and general emoness of isolation. Perhaps its best to leave things as it is, unresolved.

I would rather distance myself than to risk the hurt again. It simply takes too long to heal. Forgive me. I ain't strong enough.

Who can say where the road goes..
Where the days flows..
Only time..


Call me an attention whore. I don't care. It ain't any of your business, so get lost.

Its 5.25am. And here I am. Will I never learn?

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Pre-Mamma Mia Gathering @ 1U

Anyways, following a sudden flurry of movie screenings by Nuffnang, I got myself invited to the Mamma Mia Screening in GSC, 1 Utama last Monday.

And despite some minor wardrobe malfunction and I don't mean a Janet Jackson wtf , thanks Andrew for fetching me there. And for the use of your camera. Sorry about the shameless cam-whoring, but I guess you kinda expected it? =D

Thanks to geniuses like Joshua Ong, we had a bloggers gathering in Burger's King before the movie. The supposedly set time was 6.30pm. Don't ask what time we arrived. haha.

This is my darling Zoe. Harm her and you die.

With Karena, my kaki camwhore.

with Jentzen and Andrew

I know I'm a poser. haha. But you know what? Its damn hard to bend down lor! Damn scared i ter-over-expose... bleh.

Joseph and Benjamin

Andrew. He needs a haircut right??!!!

His Royalness David

Stan says I look like I have a backache T___T

What girls do best. Sorry about the camera Andrew. LOL.

Karena, Sherry, Zoe

A group photo of the bloggers who actually turned up
Yes I know.. "Whoa!" right?

Soon headed off to GSC to collect our tickets from Robb and Pinky.


Them fake gays.

Andrew, Joshua, Sherry, Teck Weng

I like this picture. Its the complementing colours i think.

Red is The Colour.


...who actually found me in that vast cinema.
I guess wearing bright red does help after all!

Met a few more bloggers but hadn't had the chance to take a picture with them. It was awesome meeting you guys!

Movie was rather interesting. Met a few more people and soon headed off to Taipan's McD with Zoe, Ren and Sue. Oh, and Zoe was so cute. She saw this acquiantance of hers which she didn't like and she was adorable bitching about him. And she looked so serious about it. Cute?

Seriously, don't make her mad. She'll tear your picture into itsy-bitsy teeny-weeny pieces and stuff it into an almost-finished-sticky Oreo McFlurry Cup. LOL.

ps. Pictures credit to Andrew Wong.
pps. Tell me if i tagged anyone wrongly? It was a little confusing. haha.

Mamma Mia! the Movie.

With promises of an almost all-stars cast comprising of Amanda Seyfried, Meryl Streep, Pierce Brosnan and Colin Firth amogst others in addition to the very popular soundtracks from 70s's /80's ABBA, who can resist not giving a chance for this musical? (especially when given a chance to watch it for free by Nuffnang =p)

It seems to me that this is a movie where you either fold your arms and impatiently await the end of this mindless, ridiculous and totally incomprehensible musical to end OR you'd either sing along (not out loud of course) and go along with the silly but entertaining antics of the cast.

After all, where else would you see 3 grown women (Meryl Streep!) singing, jumping and basically behaving in a totally indecently ridiculous manner?

Despite the inane capering, the average vocals as well as a typical story arc, it does induce a certain glee and obtimistic aura, with the sensation of swinging your feet (well, at least for me since my feet can't really touch the ground if i sit back) and humming along to those very familiar tunes you grew up with.

"You are the dancing queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing queen, feel the beat from the tambourine
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, diggin' the dancing queen.."

Coupled with the breathtaking Greek scenery, this movie can indeed charm its way into you heart. Once you get over how totally absurd the plot and storyline is of course. So sit back, relax and just let its mind-numbing frivolousness of the musical sweep you off your feet. Bring your parents. LOL.

And no, I won't spoil it for you by giving a synopsis here (although you can always Google). Go watch it. And learn that age is not a factor when it comes to having fun.

Oh, and one other thing. I think Mr.James Bond should stick to looking-suave-in-a-tux and handling some high-tech weapon or something. NO singing. Please.

Warning: This is a PG-13 movie. Quite a few sexual implications with notable "dot dot dots...". Fun though.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Pre-Mamma Mia Screening

Warning: This is your average, boring, everyday rant of an average, lifeless teenage girl who lacks attention. So if you feel yourself yawning, turn back!

It all started on a sunny morning...

... okay, so what if i missed the morning? early risers who wake up at the crack of dawn for no reason are freaks!

was supposed to wake up at 11am since i'm meeting Acey and Teck Weng for lunch at 12pm.

I woke up at 11.45am. =D

so yeah.. slight delay, but i guess by now you shouldn't be that surprised huh? Or if you really were caught by surprise, just give me the mata sepet look. Trust me. I'm damned used to it by now.

Went for Subway, talked crap, listened to one hit wonders. Not too bad actually. I actually kinda missed those songs!

After lunch, walked to a nearby clinic to get my Cervical Cancer jab. Ugh. I can feel the needle sliding in!! T___T The doctor was kinda nice though, she gave me a biscuit (it was chocolate!) and a piece of candy ^^ ain't she sweet?

Walked to AC to chill a little. Glad to know that i can still make heads turn. Ok la. i know i super muka tebal wan......... but you still love me anyways right? *puppy dog eyes* HAHA!

Talked a little about animal fusion, undies (don't ask!) and generally pathetically lame people. And don't worry. 99.999999999% chance it ain't you.

Heading for dinner in 1U, followed by Mamma Mia screening (thanks to Nuffnang!). Whoever's that's going, if you see me, come say hi! ^^

ps. I had a haircut. Not that clear in the picture (top), but you get a general idea of what i look like anyway. what do you think?

pps. thanks to my darling Fimeh Limeh for my cube! damn cute right?!!

Saturday, September 20, 2008

SuperCute Diamond Drops!

Had lunch at Wong Kok SS2 with Acey, Kelvin and Jen Ai (who is darned ke ai!). Seriously, this is one of the best sessions ever! Ai darling.. I hope we can be more than friends *wink*

Memorable Moments #1:-

Me: See that guy in blue? Just now keep staring at me...
Acey: You're BB Queen what...
Me: .....

Okay, firstly im not being perasan ok! Seriously, that dude kept looking at me. I know la we're sitting like almost opposite each other and im damn hawt, but still! no need look until like that right? Ugh.. make me damn self conscious only wtf.

Secondly, if you don't know whats 'BB Queen' and no it doesn't have anything to do with barbeque, then too bad! im not telling ya. blehhh. but to give you a clue, its something only sohai #1 Acey can think of la -.-

we both look damn innocent kan? ^^

I'll honestly admit that we weren't very good customers.

While waiting for JenAi, me and Acey waited inside where there is air-cond. and yeah, we were talking crap about some silly-looking-ice-bowl thing as well as the muscular-man-with-tiny-dick. I tell you right, talking with Acey before your meal is darned turn off wei.. sure no mood to eat already wan. You girls who want to go on diet but does not have the discipline should most definitely look him up!

Anyway, where was i? oh yeah.. when my darling SuperCute arrived, we moved outside cz these two people wanted to pollute the air smoke. An hour later, Kelvin who's like super free to drive all the way there because he misses us arrived. And yeah. we actually took 2 hours to finish our food. Or at least I did. Some people damn wasteful.. haihz.. =P

Once SuperCute's battery started getting low however, we moved back inside where its cool because it was so darned hot outside (the weather here is so screwed up!).

Memorable Moment #2:-

Sor Chai #1!

Me: *pulls table closer to sofa so that i don't have to stretch so far*

(okay i know i damn lazy wtf)

SuperCute: *tries to pull sofa nearer to table* ERRRGGHHH!

(imagine this in a very cute little girl voice..)

*sofa remains stubborn and refuses to move*

*Me, Acey, Kelvin laughing. Loudly.*

damn cute can? LOL

Memorable Moment #3:-

Sor Por #1!

SuperCute: *picks up phone*


*throws phone bling onto table and pouts*

to be honest, i actually stunned there for a moment. firstly, you have to understand, when someone like Jen Ai curses, its darned cute! its like some small kitten saying "cheeeeeeee-byeee!" with a tiny meow. Cute wot?

And to further make this a historical moment, Acey actually laughed till he cried! omg. i had no idea that was even possible. Hmm.

Who else? Sor Hai #1 lah..

Since we were apparently disturbing the peaceful serenity of the place, not to mention dirty looks by out neighbours, we decided to move to Starbucks. I had to resist the temptation to buy my Mocha Latte/Frapp. It sux being broke =(

and most importantly Sor Mui #1!

This pic is darned photoshopped I tell you but i still look like that in real life no need to be scared wtf. Not that I'm all that free, but SOME ppl got no skill! =P

Awesome people. Next Friday FTW!!!!!

p.s. Can't seem to get my spacing right, thus the strange gap in the middle of the post. Sorry. Anyone who knows how to get it right, please leave a comment! thank you.

pps. We are interviewing applicants for administration positions in the Ch*eBye Empire. Interested applicants please forward your resume to The Messiah here. This is your Goddess speaking btw =D

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Malaysia Boleh!

The Constitution of Malaysia does not really recognise the right to privacy. However, it supposingly provides the right to have 'freedom of assembly, speech and movement'. And that's of you don't get detained by ISA lah..

ISA was originally enacted in the 1960's in response to Communist insurgency. At that period of time, i believe that its fair that such a law is enacted in order to stamp out the communist influence. However, this being almost 50 years later, why is it still being implemented? Are we afraid of our own countrymen (or women) that we'd use such harsh laws against our own people?

Or perhaps quoting the recent - and if i may say, unjustified - racist remarks:-
"I urge the Chinese not to become like the Jewish in America, where it is not enough that they control the economy, but they also want to dominate politics," said the now famous Ahmad Ismail.

Are we now operating the country based on race? Are we not supposed to be "bangsa malaysia" or whatever shit is it that they cram down our throat in Moral class in schools? Does talent or ability even matter anymore? Apparently not.

The one who made the remarks were suspended for 3 years. The one who merely reported the remark (hey, isn't that like, the whole point of the job?) was arrested without a trial by the ISA.

Am I allowed to laugh? Or is it a crime as well?

Mehh. We're now the laughing stock of the world. Awesome-nya..

Im so proud to be a Malaysian. We have such a democratic nation, amazing freedom of press, champions for the cause of human rights, and of course, who can forget the undeniable joy of reading local politics.

mereka boleh?

yarh. Malaysia juga boleh!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

The PAWS trip.

Im tired. Brain not functioning. Post will be in simple uncomplicated sentences:-

We planned to meet up for breakfast at 9am @ Coffee Bean.

I overslept and reached at 9.30am. We were EARLY.

They started arriving at 10am+. How typical.

We had coffee.

This is Zoe. She thinks its funny. So do i. =D

Sue, Sherry, Zoe. In car. Camwhoring. wtf.


The Munkey Story.

This little monkey hung himself.

Meet Charlie The Munkey.

This is why the previous monkey hung himself.
Violence. Neglect. Depression.
You no touch munkey. He kills.

-The End-


Cat and Dog. obviously. wtf.

Won't you give them a good home?

say *awwwwwwww* with me.

Us bullying the pup.

Yee Hou bullying the pup.

Conclusion: We bully pups.

Teck Weng, Sue, Sherry, Zoe, Yee Hou.
Wet, sweaty, smelly, tired, happy.

Go volunteer.
Add some karma points. Then sin by indulging in a chocolate ice-cream.

We're endorsing this place if they want us


Headed of to Summit after that.

Zoe, Teck Weng, Sherry. Late lunch.

I find this funny. start laughing!


Had craving for chips. Walking towards Cold Storage.
Got a call, from my brother:-

"Hello? anything?"
"Dad is behind you!"

*looks back*

*Dad is less than 1 metre away DIRECTLY BEHIND ME wtf*

*walks super fast and hides in between racks*

"Did he see me?"




Bought chips. Go home.

No one home.

Makes TW bring me out for drink.

Went home.

Dinner. Sleep.


p.s wtf. damn wuliao. sorry for retarded post. brain has stopped functioning for the night. im off to bed. good night.

pps. Happy Belated Birthday Sayang!

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Sunday morning blues. Literally

I suck at updating, really. its amazing how this blog survived for so long..

by now i have countless photos yet to be uploaded, posts yet to be posted, food yet to eaten and stuff yet to be done. ok fine, im just being lame here. haihz, im a little on sugar high at the moment despite it only being 2pm.... or perhaps it's because i woke up damn early at 6AM ON A SUNDAY!! gawd.. i must've died and gone to sleep-hell *sigh*

*takes a deep breath*

do not ask me why i woke up so early because its so darned stupid that im embaressed to talked about it because you'd probably laugh your ass off if you ever found out why i woke up so blardy early on a Sunday morning which is why im not telling you so please don't bother asking because im not telling you wtf

and no, don't bother trying to persuade me to tell you, i will not give in.

and don't you dare give me that puppy dog/ puss-in-boots wide eyed look!

ish.. why are you all making this so hard for me? =(

STOP IT!!! :(

ugh, FINE! i tell you la... -.-

i woke up early because...

I fell off my bed as I was trying to hit the snooze button. DO NOT LAUGH wtf!!

I SAID DO NOT LAUGH wtf -________________-"
i hit my elbow pain enough already ok!
mehhhhhhhh.. if i get another blue-black bruise i hailat d.. =\

Ok. time to divert attention from my unfortunate misfortune.

Check out Acey's post on Innit chicks here. It gives a rather good summary of the girls you see spamming the Innit chatbox at odd hours (or all hours. whatever) plus i'd say he has rather good drawing skills wouldn't you say? well, at least its better than some people anyway *ahem AWA* (inside joke, ignore if you don't understand). ok, im vain. im only promoting it because im also featured albeit in a rather exagerated way wtf.

Oh, and before i forget, thanks Chriss for your post too! awww. you make me blush so much i look like a tomato cute strawberry wtf.

okay. im done crapping for now. have a good day everyone!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

tuesday blues

*sniffs* I am sick. Again.

You know what? (is that like one of the most cliche opening lines or what.. -___-) One of the things I really hate is being taken for granted. Doubtless, with the issue of familiarity, be it friend or family gives one occasional tickets to expect certain favours or understandings in a situation, yet even one should not ignore the boundaries of courtesy.

Don’t get me wrong, its nice to be trusted (or am i?) but even one as worthless as me feels offended at being used every so often without a please or thank you. And hell if you think I’m not open minded enough to take in occasional blunders.

I resent not being taken seriously.
I resent being taken for granted.
I resent being somewhere and be miserable.

Its ridiculous how one can feel when you’ve denied an invitation due to earlier engagements or perhaps in favour of more pressing matters only to be shrugged of with a “Oh, at least I tried” and then ignored after that. Its probable that you will not even be missed of you did not attend.

How depressing is that?

Superficiality seems to be so common nowadays. I’ve been living in it for some time now, occasionally making an appearance just to make myself believe I actually have a social life. And of course to remind people that I’m still alive.

Sometimes it’s so difficult to know who’s real and who's, for lack of a better word, plastic.

Saying that, there are those who’d stuck with me through thick and thin. The ones whom I’ve learned to trust. The ones who I actually enjoy being with. The ones who make me happy just by being there. You guys are so awesome that being with you reduces my need for chocolate and ice-cream, which is saying a lot if you actually understand the extent of my addiction…

Those actually liking me for the way I am, thank you.
Those liking me because of my looks I have nothing against you.
Those treating me as if I’m not worth a shit, fuck you.

Its time to get tough.

And no, I’m not emo-ing despite the perverse attraction of it. Something simply happened today to remind me how hard it is to be yourself sometimes. Smiling and nodding while viciously backstabbing each other. Just back off, can? Trust me, you do not want to know how much of a bitch I can be.

Mehh. I can’t eat chocs with my friggin sore throat.

ps. and yes. i am THAT vain.